So i am confused

This shouldn't be the way i'm thinking now but apparently it is. I feel so dumb. I really do. I don't see whats the use of _ anymore.

I hate the fucking emptiness i feel. I just want to curl up and cry fucking loudly.

you don't understand. you won't understand. you don't bother to.

i'm washing my hands off and then give up :)

i'm tired already.

Weekends Excitement

Or should i say double happiness. I'm super looking forward to the weekends. Although i look forward to every weekend but this weekend is much more special. Yes, The F1 Week!

I'm giving out freebies which are F1 souvenirs by the STB (Singapore Tourism Board). So if you guys want, come down to Orchard MRT on Friday, Sat and Sun, 5-9pm. Give me a message if you're interested because i will leave the nicer ones for you! I'm such an angel. *pukes*

Not forgetting. Baby's booking out!! Estatic! I'm skipping the chalet to accompany him so hope you girls don't mind :) I know i have cancelled many many times BUT it has been like 12 days since i last saw him and we only have less than an hour a day or sometimes less than half an hour or 20 minutes or 10 minutes? Pretty sad case right. But its okay. I'm getting used to it. Although i have got to admit, i mgiht be pretty upset but this is something without choice. Oh well, weekends more stuff to talk about :)

* is under probation. ** is going to jail. I'm sorry to hear the news but please turn over a new leaf. Cheerup girlies, they would be fine. Time would just fly past. La kopi sessions stopped already as everyone's not in the mood. No one has the mood to go out. Brace up people :) Life still goes on. I bet they would be happier to know that we are living life to the fullest whilst waiting for them.

Has the magic of love died down? I can't help but be upset at the thought of vanishing love.

and sometimes, it hurts so much that i start to cry.

Stop Trying to Think You're the Centre of The Universe

Yes. You. Simply. You.

Stopactinglikesomefucktardshitandthinkyou'rethecentreofeverythingbecauseyou'resimplyhellnot.

IfuckingdespiseyouandIdon'tknowhowthefucktoexpressitout.Everythingpiledontomeandyoudid

nothingandstandatyourfuckingcornerandlaughyourassoff.It'sfunnylookingatushardatworkisn'tit?Ifuckingwanttoslapyoustraightinyourfaceasshole.Everyone'sbusywiththeirownscopeandyou'relike

fuckingidling.I'mfuckingnofuckingpleasedtofuckingseeyoushakeyourfuckinglegandseeusburrowing

inthefuckingmountainouswork.Youfuckingactasifyou'resomefuckingbigshotwhenyou'renotfuckingin

charge.Likeyou'renottheinchargesodonotactsmartanddowhatyouaren'tsupposedtodo.Nobodyasked

youtotakedownthefuckingminutesandfuckingsendtotheHead.LikeHello?Useyourfuckingbrains. Everything'slikenotfuckingfinalisedsodon'tactsmartactcleveractintelligentandsendandlandusallinto

somedeepfuckshityoufuckingretard.

I. Don't. Know. Why. Am. I. Typing. Like. This. I. Think. I'm. Fucking. Pissed. Off.

You. Know. Who. The. Fuck. You. Are.

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I can't stand him/her. SERIOUSLY. URGHS.

I hate late night La Kopi sessions already. I'm tired !!!!!!!!!

I MISS MY BABY!

AND BONG!

Singapore River Festival Opening Launch

Yesterday was a fun filled day. Woke up as early as six in the morning to get prepared for SPM project presentation. Talk about Holidays. But at least its a project off our minds when school reopens :) I was super scared presenting to half the cohort. Or lesser. But still, i managed to get through it !

After presentation headed to AMK for food. Chatted like crazy and i hurried to photo shoot. It was nothing seriously. Just pending for some stuff. Then headed home got a change of bags and rushed down to Clarke Quay.

Met Rachel, Kah Eng and Bang Hao. My apologies for making you guys wait. Had a quick dinner and headed to the site.

The uniform doesn't sucks that badly. Its still an okay. HAHA. Stood like vases for a few hours. Ushering people in. And also the Minister of trade and information. Photographs were taken and it shall be posted in a jiffy.

The perks of working in this event isn't about the allowance earned. Its more of the experience you get. It was really really fun. We were invited to this party with free flow alcohol. Which sadly, I didn't touch. What's more, we were invited on the river taxi for free. The scenery and views were absolutely breath taking. And we were like some random tourist shouting "HI!" and waving out hands frantically. And being a true Race Ambassador, we shouted Welcome to Singpore GP Season!!! in front of the crew camera and to tourist alike.

Oh yeah. Because of our "costumes", photographs were requested especially by tourists and this Ang Moh came up to me and said, "The guys look great, but you girls look even better". I had a good kick out of it.

Clarke Quay and Boat Quay is pretty super familiar to me, but yesterday's event was truly a hype. I never regretted joining the race ambassadors.

Baby didn't book out this weekend due to _. I'm not very happy. Or rather, I'm quite upset. But there's nothing that can be done. I'm not upset not angry nor angry with him. Neither do i sound upset because i believe if i do sound upset, Baby would behe would be guilty and he would be even more unhappy. So Kudos Baby! Its just one weekend. I'm waiting for your next bookout :)

Pictures up like tomorrow ?

I promise.

The two shirts which cost me a large bomb ARRIVED. AUTHENTIC ABERCROMBIE AND FITCH. I'm a fucking happy girl :)

The best thing about me, is You

I got back my results. And i got super shocked with it. I even got daddy to double check it for me. Luck, perhaps? And i realised, i enjoy talking to Garrett because we are in the same frequency.
















Garrett: Fuck
Garrett: You
Garrett: Fucking Fuck You
Carrie: I'm still a virgin
Garrett: Fuck the Fucking Shit out of you
Carrie: THANK YOU. I don't want to get fucked by you please.

HAHAH.

SPM project is currently underway and i hope it would be a success. It's quite tough thinking of relating golf to business and trying to make it practical. But nonetheless, this is a challenge undertaken :)

Been up to F1 race ambassador's briefing and recently, the Singapore Water Festival. Hyped about the event, unhyped about working again. For the latter event, we are going to be at cClarke Quay. Again. I broke my vows already. The first with Baby and the second one with this event. I vowed not to step into CQ or BQ for 3 months at least. Depressing. He really made me detest the place which i often frequent in the past. TSK. Whatever, its all over :)

Sometimes i really wonder why isn't out class bonded. Bad bad. Is this the case for Poly life or ? Well, as we get older and older, we find ourseleves with even lesser friends than before. I guess this is quite true. In time to come, when you get married to your work, most of your time is on your career and you are always on the go to oil it to perfection. Then, you're married to the love of your life. You go home everyday and bask in each other's company on top of making time for work. Socializing doesn't seem so important anymore with the insufficient 24 hours a day on hand. Not forgetting, your parents, your kids or pets (if any) catching your attention. Plus the millions of bills coming in - life is tough, tough life. It sucks but we can tide over it with a straw. Irony isn't it.

Anyway, Baby didn't book out on Friday but Saturday. Went over to his place in the afternoon and we quarrelled. Badly. But well, everything's resolved now. Its just a simple misunderstanding. A surprise gone awry. Nevertheless, its all sunshine after the rain and i'm glad.

Baby, don't think too much. You're sufficient already :) Training has been tough i know. They call you cockroaches but don't ever give up, just take care of yourself. Though in NDU, they don't call you entirely in NDU unless you survive their fucking hell week, then you're elite. But don't worry, whenever you lose faith, strength and courage, stop and look at yourself through my eyes - you're still the elite :)

He got caught for _ and he might get _. DEPRESSED. I won't be angry unless of course, you lie to me. That is a death sentence.

Well, Some ah peks(picture) to post :)














Number 4 :)















At Cathay. Whilst waiting for decision.













AMK Kpool. My shirt reads: I don't Care. FUCK THAT SHIT













My attire for the day :) 07 Sept













BONG AND ME!













Our fairytale :)

Love, I don't want anything. All i want is for you to be by my side :)

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and something for laughs
Woman has Man in it;
Mrs. has Mr. in it;
Female has Male in it;
She has He in it;
Madam has Adam in it;
No wonder men always want to be inside women!

Men were born between the legs of a woman,
yet men spend all their life and time trying to go back between the legs of a woman....
Why?
BECAUSE THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME

Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN?
MENtal illness
MENstrual cramps
MENtal breakdown
MENopause
AND ..
When we have REAL trouble, it's aHISterectomy.

A man was sitting reading his papers when his wife hit him round the head with a frying pan.
'What was that for?' the man asked.
The wife replied 'That was for the piece of paper with the name Jenny on it that I found in your pants pocket'.
The man then said 'When I was at the races last week Jenny was the name of the horse I bet on'
The wife apologized and went on with the housework.

Three days later the man is watching TV when his wife bashes him on the head with an even bigger frying pan, knocking him unconscious.
Upon re-gaining consciousness the man asked why she had hit again.
Wife replied. 'Your horse phoned'

Its worse than a rollercoaster ride

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I'm not feeling any better. I feel worse. I hate the medicine to the so damn core! At first it was like just any sore throat, then at night. I started throwing up, started to get dizzy spells. I turned as white as sheet and i visited the doctor. again.

Now, i think i'm turning worse. I'm cold and hot at the same time. I feel like sleeping but i can't sleep. My throat seems like Sahara desert. I can't speak in my normal tone.

I pissed myself off together with Baby last night. I think i caused the misunderstanding. So if you're reading this. I want to apologize to you.

Firstly, I have no intention of doubting you in any way or another. I was pissed, or rather peeved by the calls i got. I knew i threw my tantrums at you. But i just couldn't control my emotions well i suppose. I got angry and i think you might have mistaken this as me suspecting you did something behind me or whatsoever. But here, i claim. I didn't have that thought. I just keep wondering why ask me to be careful. Be careful of what? What's to be careful about? Why the engima?

Hopefully, this misunderstanding could be resolved later tonight. I need to explain to you. Afterall, time has been as little as a grain of sand for us. And you're not booking out today :(

So officially i claim, This friday suck.

I'm sick but Happy :)

It's thrifty Thursday today. Okay. It's not thrifty since i have spent 83746523 bucks today. exaggeration.

So today's itnerary: Home - AMK - Zoo - AMK - Home. So interesting right ? Tsk.

Left home and met Lay Ying. She told me she'll be late for 10-15 mins but i waited for 20 mins or more. I very nearly bought 8days. Lucky Lay Ying. Hurhur. Waited for 138 which took like lightyears to come and off we go to the zoo ! Yao Wei met us there and i caught him - SLEEPING. Aha.

Zoo's journey pretty exciting. I don't see the need for you guys to buy paper bags or masks when out with me lorhsz. Really so pai seh meh ? And and and I watched the ANIMAL SHOW. The seal and penguins are so freaking *&$%#?! cuuuttteeee. I think i should just volunteer myself. HAHA. With Hui Qi's encouragement.

Since it would be a damn super long post if i were to blog everything in words. I would leave the excitement till i got the peektures from Yao Wei who is Supposed to be the Photographer BUT at the sight of a hideous monkey, he got turned off whilst saying "eeyer, so UGLY". But in the end he resumed his post. HAHA.

Classic 1
C: I'm NOT going into the SCALY encounters.
H: I also. *sat beside me*
L+S+Y: *already going in* Go lah.
H: *betrayed me* Went
C: *Went off too*
C: I don't want to be the last *grabbed Yao Wei's sleeve*
And in the end, in the scaly encounter i was holding tight onto Lay Ying's arms and i got freaked out by this cute monkey which ran along me with a distance of about 10m or less ? I survived the scaly encounter because i only saw 2 monkeys and 1 tortoise. No scaly stuff!!! They were laughing like crazy at me :(

Classic 2
S: Eh. Baboons doing *ahem*
C+H+L: Where?
C+H: Orhs. Really leis!
L: WHERE?
C+H: Really lorhsz. So obvious.
*baboons finish their job*
C+H: Don't have already
L: *suddenly* I still haven't see a single baboon leis.
This is really LOL scenario.

And i learnt stuff.

1. Elephants flap their ears cause it's HOT!
2. Elephants Don't eat Humans. (Mummy lied to me :( -.-)
3. Giraffes are born at the height of 1.8m ( ^#%$&@^$)
4. I still find ostrich dumb and hilarious because they still don't understand that even by burying their heads in the earth, they can't see anything but because their bums are so huge, enemies can still see them.
5. It is advisable to stop leaping and singing Madagascar with my clique around:( (entertainment ma)
6. Find a place to rest or suffer the consequences
7. Go to the zoo when you're young.
8. Always make Yao Wei snap peektures from a hidden angle to be able to not pay for the photos.

I'm having a sore throat. And i think my voice is getting wayy disgusting...

And no. The more i think, the more i am not okay. I'm sorry.

The finishing line seems so far that i feel like giving up already.