Shifted

HELLO PEOPLE!! I shifted to

www.nowjusthutupandfly.wordpress.com

CAUSE GOT PASSWORD. SO EXCITING.

Anyway, want the password ask me hokays ?

LOVE YOU!

It makes me wonder

I think i ate something wrong. I'm dying now from all the puking and growling of stomach :( Plus i'm having a fever :'(

Food for thought. What if the person whom you always thought love you and would always be there for you, suddenly left you ? How will you feel ?

Will you make her stay or would you embrace your singlehood ?

More than often, we take things for granted. But its only a matter of time, that "thing" leaves you. No matter how much she loved you, you made her give up because you didn't cherish her when she's with you. Everything she once did, she did it for you. But have you ever spared a thought for her and stand in her point?

When she's ill did you bother to take care of her ? When she's alone do you bother to make sure she's not bored ?

I don't think so.

Whatever it is, be prepared to lose her eventually if things goes on.

You may not mind now, but maybe you'll regret in future.

Because, shes leaving. Leaving you.

Pissed.

Fucking pissed. Do you know?

So this is how FRIENDS should be. Looking you up when they need help or they are bored or they run into trouble. Seriously. How many times already. All you care is to go out and have fun. PERIOD. The what about the rest? I can't be bothered by you already. And you can say that i'm petty but i never ever forget that fucking "sorry-i'm-drunk" slap. Hello, Fuck you fucktard whore. Shit, you really look like one. TSK.

And i'm just acting friendly to _. Please lor. Copy cat. People do this you also want. Everything you must zup. Sibeh buay tahan. I felt like asking you to don't be so xia lan and act big. Seriously. Everything want people accommodate you.

Have been unhappy recently. But i don't know why. Sometimes i really feel empty inside. Have i got to know too much?

That thought is persistant. You didn't bother to catch.

I need a hug now.

也许在你忙忙碌碌的生活里，缺少了我这个人并不是个问题。
也许我只不过是个非常平凡的女人
也许这一切都不应该。。。

Shake Your Pom Pom

Shake Your Pom Pom - Missy Elliott



I know this is a damn old song but it's nice hokay! HAHA.

Have been busy being at home and outside the past few days. Mostly with Baby. And i have been playing facebook's word challenge. It's seriously addictive. Can't get my hands off it.

Tommorrow's interview at OUB centre for events management thingy. I think it would be a good experience if i'm selected and reflects well on the resume too!

It really feels good to know that you can watch movies, do whatever you like without having to brood about studying. Well, i still have one more so wish me luck :) I need plenty of it for this. Feeling super uptight just merely thinking about it.

B and i have been going on pretty well. At least both of us are trying to make it last and work. Maybe whatever _ said was redundant. Maybe i really should trust him and not listen to _.

Nevertheless, i was really unhappy about a particular certain someone. I wish he/she would just stop interrupting and talking to him/herself. I really have no idea what to react and it's like i'm not interested in what you have got to think. Of me or of my friends or my relationship.

I really can't be bothered with you, it's just _ saying that i reply you but that doesn't mean you can pour your whatever unhappiness, ungain etc to me. It's your problem not mine. I have my own to solve.

I know and i believe my boyfriend is capable to protect me from whatever harm you think i will land myself into -.- I'm not addicted to drugs nor am i some fucking ah lian. Even my group of friends are into such stuff, they are my friends and i believe they won't hurt me either. So shove this into you...

GET A FREAKING LIFE.

I miss baby :(

It's like ecstasy, i love i hate you

If you do...

Understand me, you wouldn't have acted like that. It pains me so much.

All papers down and i'm a happy girl. I can catch up with friends, work, slack. To sum up, to do whatever i want to do or whatever i feel like doing - including blogging with peektures.

On a side note, Boyf is leaving for China soon :( I will miss her like how a martian misses mars when put in Singapore. She's leaving on the 4th or 5th. CAN YOU DON'T GO. Even though like we kind of drifted apart but please, you still have a place in my heart cause you're my boyfriend and i still share things with you. EEK. So mushy right. I know you will confirm say i so er xin -.- But 6 months leis. Damn long eh :( Time faster pass. AND PLEASE MSN/WEBCAM ME OR WHATEVER LA OKAY. Your boyfriend important but your girlfriend here is also important okay ALLEN LUO WAN LING.

Oh yeah, idk if Dickson reads my blog but i heard you're going "ji nan" (so difficult) so take care too and update me okay chao ah beng? :)

Well, i had a tiff with _. Sometimes it just hurts me so much that up till now, you don't really understand me.

I know my friends and I are still young and we have yet to experience things or that we don't know how to handle things yet. I know you're worried for my safety and everything but the words you used to show your care. Makes me feel so little, so dumb, so child.

I did everything i can for you. To make this work, i sacrificed alot but i didn't mind cause i know we would be happy. But the thing is, it hurts when i heard you said something like that about my friends. Although you might not mean what i thought but that is what i feel. I strayed away from them and lost contact because i know we would have too little time together if i continued my ways. My friends were good enough to understand my plight and safely kept their distance but never once did they seriously broke ties with me just because i overlook them for you. And never once did they ask me to choose them or you despite me meeting them only when needed.

I used to put them as my priority, but after being with you, they aren't anymore.

It hurts when i hear you say such things which even though you didn't mean it in a malicious way as i intepreted. Because they took into account i regarded our relationship as something serious and they respected us and not merely stay away when i need a listening ear or when you aren't free. Do you know that?

And i was angry when i pushed you away, i didn't mean to do it. But at that time, it still hurts.

Am i really in the wrong love? Or are we really not suited?

I'm just not top on the list, am i ?


Anyway.

Diana, Happy birthday to you girl! :)

*idk if she reads this, me pretend she does.

If you do understand me and love me, hold me, i'm breaking down

How to

Study..

Fuck law fuck everything. Now i just need a pillar of strength.

Sometimes i ponder and think, do you love me more than yesterday but less than tomorrow?

Because, sometimes i feel lost but i don't dare to question.

Am i being paranoid?

And now, I'm the unsure one about her own feelings. But how to bring it across to you without you thinking ____.

I missed this

It's the lugging never ending nose piled in heaps of books, brain even more cramped than buses in India, eyes prying to open apart and the body trying to keep awake period of time.

Yes, the exams period. And guess what? I.HAVE.NOT.STARTED. I know standing ovation for me. But no encores i'm sorry. See, i'm so petrified that i have no fucking idea what am i typing.

Since i was taking a breather, i browsed through my old old pictures and marvelled at my change.

From joining to quitting, from clubbing to not clubbing, from everyday out to lesser outs, from menthol light to fresh air, from inked to the un-inked. Yeah. I guess this change did me some good. But as i mentioned 982340985 times, i missed my past.

Isn't this like the choiest ever ? Sighs. Bye bye. I guess i won't be having another till i'm 20 odd?

Mummy just warned me against tattoos (like again!). I guess she really abhors the very idea of ink on my body. Well, what to do. When i grow up, maybe i would. But till then...

Or maybe i will just chicken out when i get older.

Ah, the process of growing.

Anyway post u a question,

What if one day your other half tells you he/she does not have feelings for you anymore and ask you to make a choice to stay together or break up.

Which would you choose?

Oh disclaimer: Gary and I are fine and doing on well :) We'll get married like 23984903458 years later? HAHA. I'm joking. But yes, currently we are going on strong and fine.

Lg ice cream is super loved. Although it gives me a heck of problems. Similar to the gift sender eh? :x

The scarring.