Sad to say

Weekends are approaching to a close again. By and by soon, school will then reopen and all the junk would come flooding in. I was just starting to enjoy my holidays! Ugh.

Work at F1 booth is a TOTAL DISASTER. First up, flyer distributor. I mean we weren't "hired" or "supposed" to give out dumb car stickers/decals. I was damn fed up with the job. I thought we were supposed to mingle, chit chat about Singapore GP season. I kind of regret doing this ambassador thingy but i have to say Clarke Quay was really worth the experience. Oh well. Good and Bad. And i'm not working today. Pffftt. We should just go on a strike :) It makes me happier.

Whatever it is. I'm happy to get it over and done with already. I'm looking forward to Wednesday :) Although the company of the people was uber fantastic. And and and the many faces i saw. It was super embarassing in the race ambassador attire but it was great to see so many familiar faces.

- I made an ang moh banged his head against a lamp post. (This isn't my fault)
- Some stupid small ah beng walked past me one thousand times and over and asked me for my number (so lame -.-)
- Someone called gary tried to flirt with me but i have my own gary :)

Weekends spells meeting up with my boyfriend :D Friday after work went looking for Baby and yesterday Baby came to my booth to wait for 8.45pm to finally drragggg by. Watched painted skin. Its boring. Seriously. Its gore not thriller not horror. Its damn damn fucking disgusting. YUCK. But whatever it is. I still enjoy weekends with him.

The abercrombie and fitch shirt has arrived. The cuts are deliberately there, it isn't used nor worn nor second hand item please. I happily imported it causing a huge huge hole in my wallet. I should have listened and opted for the wallet. But neverminds. I like it. Hopefully he likes it too :)

I have peektures to post. I know i owe quite a number. I want to edit what. Ya carrie just stop procrastinating. Tsk.

Baby's playing basketball now. I'm waiting for him now. But i think i'm going to fall asleep now. I feel so pigged now. So how now brown cow?

So brown cow told me to go and sleep. My head is splitting like crazy.

So i am confused

This shouldn't be the way i'm thinking now but apparently it is. I feel so dumb. I really do. I don't see whats the use of _ anymore.

I hate the fucking emptiness i feel. I just want to curl up and cry fucking loudly.

you don't understand. you won't understand. you don't bother to.

i'm washing my hands off and then give up :)

i'm tired already.

Weekends Excitement

Or should i say double happiness. I'm super looking forward to the weekends. Although i look forward to every weekend but this weekend is much more special. Yes, The F1 Week!

I'm giving out freebies which are F1 souvenirs by the STB (Singapore Tourism Board). So if you guys want, come down to Orchard MRT on Friday, Sat and Sun, 5-9pm. Give me a message if you're interested because i will leave the nicer ones for you! I'm such an angel. *pukes*

Not forgetting. Baby's booking out!! Estatic! I'm skipping the chalet to accompany him so hope you girls don't mind :) I know i have cancelled many many times BUT it has been like 12 days since i last saw him and we only have less than an hour a day or sometimes less than half an hour or 20 minutes or 10 minutes? Pretty sad case right. But its okay. I'm getting used to it. Although i have got to admit, i mgiht be pretty upset but this is something without choice. Oh well, weekends more stuff to talk about :)

* is under probation. ** is going to jail. I'm sorry to hear the news but please turn over a new leaf. Cheerup girlies, they would be fine. Time would just fly past. La kopi sessions stopped already as everyone's not in the mood. No one has the mood to go out. Brace up people :) Life still goes on. I bet they would be happier to know that we are living life to the fullest whilst waiting for them.

Has the magic of love died down? I can't help but be upset at the thought of vanishing love.

and sometimes, it hurts so much that i start to cry.

Stop Trying to Think You're the Centre of The Universe

Yes. You. Simply. You.

Stopactinglikesomefucktardshitandthinkyou'rethecentreofeverythingbecauseyou'resimplyhellnot.

IfuckingdespiseyouandIdon'tknowhowthefucktoexpressitout.Everythingpiledontomeandyoudid

nothingandstandatyourfuckingcornerandlaughyourassoff.It'sfunnylookingatushardatworkisn'tit?Ifuckingwanttoslapyoustraightinyourfaceasshole.Everyone'sbusywiththeirownscopeandyou'relike

fuckingidling.I'mfuckingnofuckingpleasedtofuckingseeyoushakeyourfuckinglegandseeusburrowing

inthefuckingmountainouswork.Youfuckingactasifyou'resomefuckingbigshotwhenyou'renotfuckingin

charge.Likeyou'renottheinchargesodonotactsmartanddowhatyouaren'tsupposedtodo.Nobodyasked

youtotakedownthefuckingminutesandfuckingsendtotheHead.LikeHello?Useyourfuckingbrains. Everything'slikenotfuckingfinalisedsodon'tactsmartactcleveractintelligentandsendandlandusallinto

somedeepfuckshityoufuckingretard.

I. Don't. Know. Why. Am. I. Typing. Like. This. I. Think. I'm. Fucking. Pissed. Off.

You. Know. Who. The. Fuck. You. Are.

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I can't stand him/her. SERIOUSLY. URGHS.

I hate late night La Kopi sessions already. I'm tired !!!!!!!!!

I MISS MY BABY!

AND BONG!

Singapore River Festival Opening Launch

Yesterday was a fun filled day. Woke up as early as six in the morning to get prepared for SPM project presentation. Talk about Holidays. But at least its a project off our minds when school reopens :) I was super scared presenting to half the cohort. Or lesser. But still, i managed to get through it !

After presentation headed to AMK for food. Chatted like crazy and i hurried to photo shoot. It was nothing seriously. Just pending for some stuff. Then headed home got a change of bags and rushed down to Clarke Quay.

Met Rachel, Kah Eng and Bang Hao. My apologies for making you guys wait. Had a quick dinner and headed to the site.

The uniform doesn't sucks that badly. Its still an okay. HAHA. Stood like vases for a few hours. Ushering people in. And also the Minister of trade and information. Photographs were taken and it shall be posted in a jiffy.

The perks of working in this event isn't about the allowance earned. Its more of the experience you get. It was really really fun. We were invited to this party with free flow alcohol. Which sadly, I didn't touch. What's more, we were invited on the river taxi for free. The scenery and views were absolutely breath taking. And we were like some random tourist shouting "HI!" and waving out hands frantically. And being a true Race Ambassador, we shouted Welcome to Singpore GP Season!!! in front of the crew camera and to tourist alike.

Oh yeah. Because of our "costumes", photographs were requested especially by tourists and this Ang Moh came up to me and said, "The guys look great, but you girls look even better". I had a good kick out of it.

Clarke Quay and Boat Quay is pretty super familiar to me, but yesterday's event was truly a hype. I never regretted joining the race ambassadors.

Baby didn't book out this weekend due to _. I'm not very happy. Or rather, I'm quite upset. But there's nothing that can be done. I'm not upset not angry nor angry with him. Neither do i sound upset because i believe if i do sound upset, Baby would behe would be guilty and he would be even more unhappy. So Kudos Baby! Its just one weekend. I'm waiting for your next bookout :)

Pictures up like tomorrow ?

I promise.

The two shirts which cost me a large bomb ARRIVED. AUTHENTIC ABERCROMBIE AND FITCH. I'm a fucking happy girl :)

The best thing about me, is You

I got back my results. And i got super shocked with it. I even got daddy to double check it for me. Luck, perhaps? And i realised, i enjoy talking to Garrett because we are in the same frequency.
















Garrett: Fuck
Garrett: You
Garrett: Fucking Fuck You
Carrie: I'm still a virgin
Garrett: Fuck the Fucking Shit out of you
Carrie: THANK YOU. I don't want to get fucked by you please.

HAHAH.

SPM project is currently underway and i hope it would be a success. It's quite tough thinking of relating golf to business and trying to make it practical. But nonetheless, this is a challenge undertaken :)

Been up to F1 race ambassador's briefing and recently, the Singapore Water Festival. Hyped about the event, unhyped about working again. For the latter event, we are going to be at cClarke Quay. Again. I broke my vows already. The first with Baby and the second one with this event. I vowed not to step into CQ or BQ for 3 months at least. Depressing. He really made me detest the place which i often frequent in the past. TSK. Whatever, its all over :)

Sometimes i really wonder why isn't out class bonded. Bad bad. Is this the case for Poly life or ? Well, as we get older and older, we find ourseleves with even lesser friends than before. I guess this is quite true. In time to come, when you get married to your work, most of your time is on your career and you are always on the go to oil it to perfection. Then, you're married to the love of your life. You go home everyday and bask in each other's company on top of making time for work. Socializing doesn't seem so important anymore with the insufficient 24 hours a day on hand. Not forgetting, your parents, your kids or pets (if any) catching your attention. Plus the millions of bills coming in - life is tough, tough life. It sucks but we can tide over it with a straw. Irony isn't it.

Anyway, Baby didn't book out on Friday but Saturday. Went over to his place in the afternoon and we quarrelled. Badly. But well, everything's resolved now. Its just a simple misunderstanding. A surprise gone awry. Nevertheless, its all sunshine after the rain and i'm glad.

Baby, don't think too much. You're sufficient already :) Training has been tough i know. They call you cockroaches but don't ever give up, just take care of yourself. Though in NDU, they don't call you entirely in NDU unless you survive their fucking hell week, then you're elite. But don't worry, whenever you lose faith, strength and courage, stop and look at yourself through my eyes - you're still the elite :)

He got caught for _ and he might get _. DEPRESSED. I won't be angry unless of course, you lie to me. That is a death sentence.

Well, Some ah peks(picture) to post :)














Number 4 :)















At Cathay. Whilst waiting for decision.













AMK Kpool. My shirt reads: I don't Care. FUCK THAT SHIT













My attire for the day :) 07 Sept













BONG AND ME!













Our fairytale :)

Love, I don't want anything. All i want is for you to be by my side :)

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and something for laughs
Woman has Man in it;
Mrs. has Mr. in it;
Female has Male in it;
She has He in it;
Madam has Adam in it;
No wonder men always want to be inside women!

Men were born between the legs of a woman,
yet men spend all their life and time trying to go back between the legs of a woman....
Why?
BECAUSE THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME

Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN?
MENtal illness
MENstrual cramps
MENtal breakdown
MENopause
AND ..
When we have REAL trouble, it's aHISterectomy.

A man was sitting reading his papers when his wife hit him round the head with a frying pan.
'What was that for?' the man asked.
The wife replied 'That was for the piece of paper with the name Jenny on it that I found in your pants pocket'.
The man then said 'When I was at the races last week Jenny was the name of the horse I bet on'
The wife apologized and went on with the housework.

Three days later the man is watching TV when his wife bashes him on the head with an even bigger frying pan, knocking him unconscious.
Upon re-gaining consciousness the man asked why she had hit again.
Wife replied. 'Your horse phoned'

Its worse than a rollercoaster ride

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I'm not feeling any better. I feel worse. I hate the medicine to the so damn core! At first it was like just any sore throat, then at night. I started throwing up, started to get dizzy spells. I turned as white as sheet and i visited the doctor. again.

Now, i think i'm turning worse. I'm cold and hot at the same time. I feel like sleeping but i can't sleep. My throat seems like Sahara desert. I can't speak in my normal tone.

I pissed myself off together with Baby last night. I think i caused the misunderstanding. So if you're reading this. I want to apologize to you.

Firstly, I have no intention of doubting you in any way or another. I was pissed, or rather peeved by the calls i got. I knew i threw my tantrums at you. But i just couldn't control my emotions well i suppose. I got angry and i think you might have mistaken this as me suspecting you did something behind me or whatsoever. But here, i claim. I didn't have that thought. I just keep wondering why ask me to be careful. Be careful of what? What's to be careful about? Why the engima?

Hopefully, this misunderstanding could be resolved later tonight. I need to explain to you. Afterall, time has been as little as a grain of sand for us. And you're not booking out today :(

So officially i claim, This friday suck.

I'm sick but Happy :)

It's thrifty Thursday today. Okay. It's not thrifty since i have spent 83746523 bucks today. exaggeration.

So today's itnerary: Home - AMK - Zoo - AMK - Home. So interesting right ? Tsk.

Left home and met Lay Ying. She told me she'll be late for 10-15 mins but i waited for 20 mins or more. I very nearly bought 8days. Lucky Lay Ying. Hurhur. Waited for 138 which took like lightyears to come and off we go to the zoo ! Yao Wei met us there and i caught him - SLEEPING. Aha.

Zoo's journey pretty exciting. I don't see the need for you guys to buy paper bags or masks when out with me lorhsz. Really so pai seh meh ? And and and I watched the ANIMAL SHOW. The seal and penguins are so freaking *&$%#?! cuuuttteeee. I think i should just volunteer myself. HAHA. With Hui Qi's encouragement.

Since it would be a damn super long post if i were to blog everything in words. I would leave the excitement till i got the peektures from Yao Wei who is Supposed to be the Photographer BUT at the sight of a hideous monkey, he got turned off whilst saying "eeyer, so UGLY". But in the end he resumed his post. HAHA.

Classic 1
C: I'm NOT going into the SCALY encounters.
H: I also. *sat beside me*
L+S+Y: *already going in* Go lah.
H: *betrayed me* Went
C: *Went off too*
C: I don't want to be the last *grabbed Yao Wei's sleeve*
And in the end, in the scaly encounter i was holding tight onto Lay Ying's arms and i got freaked out by this cute monkey which ran along me with a distance of about 10m or less ? I survived the scaly encounter because i only saw 2 monkeys and 1 tortoise. No scaly stuff!!! They were laughing like crazy at me :(

Classic 2
S: Eh. Baboons doing *ahem*
C+H+L: Where?
C+H: Orhs. Really leis!
L: WHERE?
C+H: Really lorhsz. So obvious.
*baboons finish their job*
C+H: Don't have already
L: *suddenly* I still haven't see a single baboon leis.
This is really LOL scenario.

And i learnt stuff.

1. Elephants flap their ears cause it's HOT!
2. Elephants Don't eat Humans. (Mummy lied to me :( -.-)
3. Giraffes are born at the height of 1.8m ( ^#%$&@^$)
4. I still find ostrich dumb and hilarious because they still don't understand that even by burying their heads in the earth, they can't see anything but because their bums are so huge, enemies can still see them.
5. It is advisable to stop leaping and singing Madagascar with my clique around:( (entertainment ma)
6. Find a place to rest or suffer the consequences
7. Go to the zoo when you're young.
8. Always make Yao Wei snap peektures from a hidden angle to be able to not pay for the photos.

I'm having a sore throat. And i think my voice is getting wayy disgusting...

And no. The more i think, the more i am not okay. I'm sorry.

The finishing line seems so far that i feel like giving up already.

虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你
说别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔

我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
心还想着你

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔

请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
心还想着你

I can spell HAPPY

It's Monday. Day One of torture for Baby. But its just FOUR days. It's gonna be as quick as a flash of lightning. Maybe i got so used to it that it doesn't really seem to bother so much. At least we have tonnes and tonnes of stuff to gossip/chat/bitch about (: Absence does makes the heart grow fonder.

Next monday is our 3rd month (: Time really flies lorhsz. LOL. Happy Happy girl so i learnt how to spell H-A-P-P-Y. -.-'''

This weekend seemed to be a tad stifling and Baby's not really happy. Neither am i.

Friday was supposed to meet after his bbq but i got du-lan-ed and cancelled off but we still meet up in the end cause he miraculously ended up at my void deck. Thanks baby (: Spent a while together and headed separate ways. Actually, before that i was peeved. kwa kwa

Sat met him and cooked some unagi rice for him. His friend came a while later and i got bored. So i sat alone at the living room/kitchen with a black face and a stupid attitude. I think he got my drift and we went out in the evening. He's not happy because of certain reasons like the timing and stuff. But well, life IS life. So make full use of it!

Played pooled on sat and i suck. Seriously. 7 fucking balls. I know some of you find it hard to believe but this is how sucky i got and deterioated. My eye hurts ): Then went off at 10.30 to fetch his mum. His car was super FAR and we got drenched. And as usual, i nearly fell. I'm wishing for a day where i can live normally. Meaning no falling down, injury etc. &^#%#$ But i volunteered violently that i want to get his car together with him. 有福同享，有难同当。

Yesterday was a sucky day. I blew my top at my mum and dad. I don't know what the fuck is going on. urghs. Whats over is over.

So my weekend is partly ruined :(

PS: Baby said to bring me to chinese gardens on friday. HAHAHA. i'm crazy.

I love you (:

Today isn't a good day.

Mummy's birthday! I meant yesterday. So Happy Birthday Mummy! Although your incessant nagging pisses me off with your menopausal mood swings and we often get involved in a heated argument, i still love you many many many much much much :)

Today is Saturday. But it isn't a good day. First, I woke up super early and i'm tired. Because i have washed up and stuff, i can't fall back to sleep. So i'm effing effing tired. Thank god for concealer, foundation, make up in general. Or i would look like some zombie whose gonna invade Earth and the police would just catch me and throw me into some place where i get de-zombified. I'm thinking too much.

Afternoon met Baby. I was pretty bored -.- But thanks to Aly Aly Ong who pei-ed me for so looonnnggg. I hope you're feeling better Aly Ong! All of us are macam on the same boat i guess. Maybe all of us should just don't care. In this way, we don't have to ponder and mull over this and that. In this way, we can live in our own happy lives. I think my world would then be a happier place for myself (: Sighs. But i still think i'm just some fucking vase and i fucking hate to be a fucking vase.

Then went pool with Baby and friends. I got pissed with myself. I MUST brush up on pool. I MUST NOT wear skirts to pool. I MUST NOT wear falsies. My falsies hurt my eye so much, now its swollen and red. OUCH. No wonder the nearing double vision. It hurts like #*&@#(!? Sighs. Want pretty then don't want life already. What a direct translation.

Anyway. Sometimes i really really scoff at people who think they really have it all when they have nothing, not even their fucking balls. They live in their own world and pass judgement and stereotype people. I super dislike it, maybe even to the extent of hatred. Like hello, i think i really have more brains up there as compared to you people. A simple thing can be resolved easily but you guys just make it more confusing then ever and in the end, we are still back to square one -.- Super lame. And you guys don't even want to hear what i have got to offer. Dumb asses.

Another point to chew on, is it always true that you reap what you sow. Because apparently, this Does Not Apply to Yours Truly. I'm getting seriously un-hyped and fucked up about this whole thing. If you're not gonna give in your best shot, this isn't gonna work. If this isn't gonna work, i think both of us would just feel indignant and upset and depressed and sucidal. At least for me la. I don't know about you. Show some CONCERN is that so difficult?

Okays. I have been getting upset and more upset. And this isn't gonna help my incessant gastric pains.

Now i wish, the Earth could just swallow me up and i can happily vanish into thin air. For now, I think i feel happier this way. I will feel much happier. MUCH MUCH HAPPIER as compared to the wreck i am in NOW.

After much consideration, i think i should think curbing his cigarette intake. He's not happy and neither am i. I'm unhappy because i fail to stop. He's unhappy because i keep nagging him to stop. I'm gonna wash my hands off. If not, this would make me fucking dulan. Because i hate empty promises. END OF STORY.

FANTASTIC. NOW I'M PEEVED. FUCKING FUCKING PEEVED. CAN I USE ALL THE VOCABS I KNOW? mailto:$%5E#*#%@&*$%^#*$%*%&#^

and to you-know-who, thanks for complimenting me but sorry, i'm not interested. Even if i'm single, i'm still not interested. Or maybe next lifetime? Thank you (:

A: 不要羡慕别人的幸福，有一天自己的幸福终究会出现。
C: 说道容易，做道难。等待并不是一切。

Project

Yong Liang just called and i think he's pretty stressed up due to SPM. Hey we're all in this together! Relax and Chill dude (: And you're Hao Hao Xian Sheng lorhs, an extinct species of MEN.

I don't want to pair with HER because i would definitely quarrel with HER or even get into a fight. That the worst case scenario but i HATE people who lie to me. I fucking hate it and if i ever found out, i think everything's over.

Okay. I'm so gonna be fucked now. URGHS!

and hello, im still fucking pissed off. sometimes you don't make me trust you completely. DON'T ask me why.

I'mma big big girl in a big big world.

Went to town to discuss SPM. I find myself teleporting to the childhood days with my erm, super childish ideas. It's almost the same like the "masak masak" we played when we were younger. I could even think of President SR Nathan, George Bush and what not.

My leg is freaking hideous :( Terrible Horrible Vegetable. I'm upset and my attire today, HuiQi claims i have matured womanly. Thanks ar. Met some ah bengs at Sengkang whilst buying Cup Walker and they asked for my number -.- I just walked away. Cannot stand. I don't look like an ah lian also. So what the fuck.

I'm home alone and its fucking scary. I want mummy :( And my gastric is acting up again. &*#^$@!

Don't ask me why am i not out. Because i'm in. In is the new Out. Okays. I'm effing lame.

Bugis yesterday with annoying-retarded-but-beloved sister. PINK Extensions, clothings, ear studs, make up summarises my catch (: And we took neoprints. It has been like 923846582 years i have taken neoprint, I think age is catching up on me. So i should hobble to knitting or needlework, just kidding. Had dinner at some classy restaurant at the 60th Level of UOB Plaza 1. Great atmosphere, good staff but the food was just okay.

I'm freaking pissed off now. So i'm typing like some monkey in the zoo. On a random note, i'm still grieving for Ah Meng. I can't look at him straight in the eye cause his eyes are so sad!!!! TSK.

Thursday i'm going to the zoo :D I don't know why but we're going! YAY! I can like play with the dumb penguins, scare myself with the snakes and worship the white tiger. LOL. I want to ice skate but wait for me to recuperate and heal okay? MUST WAIT HOR PLEASE. And i want to beach volleyball/netball SOON.

Tomorrow is Mummy's birthday. Rushed out a card and it's prewttyyy. And swensen's ice cream cake. Sunday's sumptuous dinner though i'm dreading it. Hello Fats!

On a random note, I thhiinnkkk i taawww a puuttyycat !

BYE

Je suis carrie et c'est ma vie.

I'm typing in french and i'm cross referencing from alot of sources. You might not understand but those who know, please do try.

Je ne sais pas ce qui sont toi pensant ou vous se sentent. Mais il me fait beaucoup beaucoup très mal pour vous entendre dire que si je prends le travail de modélisation, il ne fait aucune différence quant à être un talonneur.

Mes larmes sont tombées vers le bas mes yeux immédiatement quand vous avez dit cela, en dépit de moi te demandant de me donner plus de respect. Mais je ne pense pas vous savez jamais que je pleure et je blesse tellement à l'intérieur.

Vous avez dit que vous n'avez pas pris mon appel précédent parce que vous lui parliez, votre ami. Ainsi je me suis soudainement senti, je ne suis rien à toi. Rien. Il est plus important que moi. Jusqu'au degré vous renoncez à mon appel parce que vous étiez au téléphone avec lui. Jusqu'au degré vous m'avez fait la file d'attente et portez votre nourriture pour toi parce que vous étiez au téléphone avec lui. Jusqu'au degré vous m'avez laissé avec vos amis quand il a appelé. Vous ne savez pas le renversement j'était, mais je l'ai caché avec un sourire plâtré.

Vous avez dit que vous m'aimez. Vous avez dit que je suis important. Mais je ne le sens pas.

Tout que je me sens est, votre meilleur ami pour toujours (BFF) est beaucoup beaucoup de plus important que moi. Beaucoup plus important que moi.

I spent 4 hours on this. Please think i'm clever or resourceful. And Yao Wei I didn't use online translator but my bare brains and hands and feet and fingers. LOL! Give me face la ):

But i'm still depressed. But i made a pact with my tears. I told them not to fall and i promise i will try to smile (:

I'm a crazy girl.

I have been watching this 《转角遇到爱》. It's Super Sweeeettttt can ??!!! Urghs. If every guy is like Show Luo in this drama. I tell you. Girls would go crazy for them. No Doubts. Seriously its wayyy too sweettttt. If my boyf lidat jiu hao >:( But neverminds. I love him for him. hehehehe.

Well afterall, dramas are dramas. It cannot be acted into reality. Sighxsz. So i think every girl must 'fess up and well, take what you have for what you have(: Anyway P was complaining to me that her boyf is not romantic anymore.

P: Why guys so dumb one. Doesn't mean i don't want roses means i really don't want what.
C: Haha. Well. Guys aren't meant to be romantic. Cheerup la.

2 hours later

P: CARRIE! He never forget our 2nd anniversary.

Then she showed me a super big bouquet of roses and another couple ring. -.- See P!!! Your boyf IS romantic okay. What matters isn't what hes gonna buy, what matters is he remembers the things about you, about the both of you. What matters isn't how he pissed you off, what matters is he tries to pacify and make you feel like a princess (:

Maybe i'm simple. Maybe i don't lust after everything which others have. I admit its pretty sweet and touching that once in a while a surprise is given. But well. So long i love him and he loves me theres a happily ever after already.

Enough about being general. Baby and I are going on smoothly hopefully without much influences and interruptions anymore :( But everytime he say another girl i would get wary? I don't know. I thought theres something wrong with me BUT there isn't. sighs. So don't blame me for thinking too much like i might think you don't love me already :( HAHA.

Aly aly is feeling down. I hope she can be strong and carry on with life. My best friend for a very long time and i don't wish for her to be so upset. Sometimes i really feel like )($*#&% him. urghs. Fucker!

S is feeling down also. A good looking model got two timed by a going to ORD guy? FUCKER. She so pretty. neverminds. i told S to do the same. Cheerup girl. With your looks and stuff, you have countless to choose okay.

Hopefully Baby won't be like this (:

3 and a half more days to go!!





















❤ you. But sorry ah. I can't colour it red. Maybe another shot (:
















I'm so sweet right?! Haha. And I'm there for you. Not BONG!
















Bong will do this. Hahas. Although he claims i'm irritating him :(
















And This is Classic (:

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I suddenly feel i have a constipation. Not what you all think of the normal constipation but more of a blogging constipation.

Words fail me at times. And my fingers can't seem to get the ideas right out at the correct word. Is it from the length of not blogging "emotionally". Well, i don't really have an answer for that.

It was raining as usual today and as i leaned against the windowsill i listened carefully to the patter of rain. Somehow, this solitary form of me takes into shape as i slowly sorted out my thinkings. No, I'm not being emotional. Just that sometimes when you finally take time off your hectic schedule and be quiet, ugly things just disappear. I know myself more clearly and probing deeper questions to ponder about.

"Life sucks. The world sucks. But if the world don't suck, we would just fall off."

I really truly agree. Just from this simple sentence alone shows a hell lot about the irony and contradicting live we lead. We don't like this/that, he/she, they/them but at the end of the day, we would just have to live with it.

Take into account of relationships. We know in love, we are bound to be hurt, there's bound to be sadness, anger, happiness and etc. But still, we give this a shot no matter how we know it might turn out. Because we have hopes and dreams and aspirations. Take it like i'm just crapping some utter nonsense. But i believe, in whatever we do, how ironical it may seem to be, it is our hopes and dreams that propels our desire and makes us move forward letting us know what we really want and how we can achieve it (:

I'm stubborn and i want things to be in my way when i feel that i'm right. But this is good, because i know what i want and i will be perserving to maintain what i have. It applies to you too :)

Its sunshine after the rain

Went to school today for some SPM briefing. Exciting? I guess so (?) just that _ was/were just so noisy that i cannot stand and i nearly turned back and screamed. _ even turned my bottle of milk. Well thankfully i didn't scream cause i'm afraid to look at their hum ji faces. Why can't _ be more self actualized? TSK. Really cannot stand nor sit -.-

After SPM briefing went for the F1 briefing plus interview. Was quite okay cause its introduction. Reflected on my days of work. Anyway. I'm on the verge of quitting cause i forsee that i would be busy during this holidays. With the project coming up, the lessons i'm going to take, the exercises i'm gonna do. 24 hours doesn't seem to be enough for me :( But the opportunity cost is lack of MONEY! I NEED MONEY BECAUSE I FUCKING WANT THAT LV. Mummy won't buy it for me because i'm prone to losing things >.<

Notice the title, Its Sunshine after the Rain. There isn't much of a heavy downpour but more of a drizzle. Or i'm just imagining things?

Well, because Baby looked and felt so sians when he booked out. I thought it was because of me. Which i thought again, maybe suddenly he thinks i'm like bothering him. Which leaded to me being upset. But i guess everything's cleared up by well, another misunderstanding (:

I'm sorry for thinking of _. But it was like a sudden thought. Cause i thought you don't love me. Should be influences but well. You're right. I should trust you (: And please. If you're reading. Sometimes i will really think that you would just find another her to replace me when i'm busy lorhsz >:'( And i don't like what i'm feeling. I hate being jealous >:'( ^*&^#%@ And i never make you jealous okay !

I don't understand why Baby so scared i will leave? It's rather impossible really. Although not physically together, we're on the phone, meeting during bookouts. So how would i leave? Actually that thought didn't cross my mind for once. So don't worry Baby. 2 years is in just a quick flash. It would be over soon. I will be waiting for you (:

So through this incident. I know who are the FRIENDS and who are just friends. HAHA. Please la. Take off your fucking pretence. Need me then find me. All your fucking nonsense. Sick and tired of it already. So ugly still want to act this act that, do this do that. She told me.

*: She can't
C: why?
*: fugly.

I laughed so badly because i told * that she says shes not bad looking and * said fugly. FUCKING UGLY. Okays. I'm not pretty either but at least. HURHURHUR. Oh yeah. Erms. Please don't jump to conclusions. Just ask me straight (: That is hopefully you have the fucking ballsz. i don't want to tarnish your, erms, already fugly face and name (: Thank me too okay?

Okays. I need my sleep.

♥ you Baby. Sleep tight.