Its the last

Its the last day of year 2008. Or to be precise, 5 Hours and 14 Minutes to 2009. How will you rate your 2008?

Personally, it has been a roller coaster ride this year. Certainly of a very much difference as compared to 2007. School work has been piling even more but the schooling timing gets shorter. I have no idea why. Behaviour-wise, turned super rebellious in the beginning but toned down alot now. So is this good or bad?

Relationship-wise, i'm happy. Definitely there are ups and downs but nevertheless, i'm still happy. Though my life would be so different if i were to be single but like McDonald's always say, "I'm Lovin' It".

No doubt now i'm pretty uncertain of the future but well, this is life. I will just take a day as it passes. Maybe as time passes, i will be more certain and assured. And i guess only till then would i fall asleep in contentment. Of course, not that i'm not contented, just more contented.

When in Rome, do what the Romans do. Therefore,i shall continue to be cliche and have my New Year Wish. (I have not forgot my Santa)

1. Get my driving license.
2. Pass with damn good GPA
3. Take a peek into my future.
4. Travel
5. To turn from Little Miss Petty to Little Miss Happy. (I'm not petty, Baby's asumption)
6. Baby _.

So what about his? HAHA
1. He wants me to love him more
2. He say i should stop buying too many fakes eye lashes
3.

I Hope

I promise i will change for the better. For you and for me.

I just hope that we won't be drifting further apart.

Iloveyou

:(

My head is spinning and its not going well. I'm super uber irritated and sians. What is the world coming to.

Some things which i once thought was important and dear suddenly turns into nothing in just a second. I seriously don't wish to give a damn about things already. I don't bother to and i don't even feel like giving a hoot because i think it's pointless.

What's the use of trying to glue things back when the other party is not willing to even sacrifice?

Too bad then, i have nothing better to say or do.

Soon to be over.

It's over. It's really over :( I'm kissing goodbye to my holy holidays. Now i'm hoping for 48 hours a day because i just have so many many things to complete :(

Whoever said poly life was slack should just climb to 20th storey, jump off and die. Because, even myself as one of the slackers, don't find it slack.

Santa didn't give me my Coach :( No White Christmas, no Coach.

Nothing.

I'm not happy at all.

It isn't a good day.
Something so simple became something almost impossible to complete
I really tried to be strong and stand up for you
But underneath all this, i think i'm gonna breakdown soon.

Please, don't tell me what to do
Just shut up and keep your comments.

I really need your support now..............

This is hilarious

This is effing hilarious. Chanced upon it and i couldn't stop laughing. But to think about it, I won't ever type like this. But well, just for laughs.

http://benglish.kennysia.com/?add=http://nowjustshutupandfly.blogspot.com

Another hilarious event which i chanced upon earlier on was about defamation. I don't want to point out who or what or why or when or how. But i don't see the reason in defaming someone you don't know just by the fact you think she does something the society thinks its wrong or that you are unhappy with the stuff she presents.

Yes, this is your space as i always put on my mouth. But she hasn't even yet stepped on your toes nor incurred your wrath why defame her? Even if whatever she has done doesn't seem to be morally right well, just fuck it? She hasn't even exchange smiles or gestures with you, not even one so why critcize?

You cant state you don't like such stuff but i see no reason as to defame/berate her to such a low stooping extent. Fess up, jealous or jealous?

It's other's life, so fuck it because she hasn't agitate you. Not at this moment.

Resolution

All I Want For Christmas Is You - Mariah Carey

I think my posts are all so emo-fied. Which is a bad thing. So my new year resolution is to be HAPPY. Maybe just Christmas resolution since everyone has their new year resolution. I'm special you see :)

Sentosa outing the day before. In a nutshell. It was fun though albeit too hot. HAHA. Playing frisbee, ball, Big 2. Yes, i started playing Big 2 already but i'm still a noobie. No eye candies at the beach yesterday which is like so sad. Talked about recent news like dumb articles and it seriously made me laugh like some maniac. They really made my day yesterday which explains the good mood.

But my shoulders hurt from sunburn :( OUCH

Shit, i think i'm having PMS. I get upset easily. WHY?!! I promise to eat more chocolates. HAHA.

Over at Baby's house now and going to the flyer tomorrow! Like finally. Even though i think it's a pretty much waste of moo-lah but i think it would be a good experience. Especially i would like know how it feels to the almost at the top of the world and comment of the service attitude of the flyer. Yeah, i sound like a dumb critic.

It's the Christmas season so here's something for you which i find meaningful. You should know who you are :)

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby, all I want for Christmas is
You oooh

Er. But Santa, I made a pact with you. Coach okay? So cookies and milk outside my windowsill. You can drop the wallet into my bedroom because i will open it slightly. But if you wanna come in and inhale some warm air knock on the window alright? The cookies are for your consumption and Rudolph too! You can tabo, i won't mind. Thanks Santa...

It doesn't hurt to be imaginative and filled with hope does it? hurhur~

Over my dead body

Apparently i'm so not over the episode. Because the same old fucked up cycle happens AGAIN.

I repeat, AGAIN. Can you fucking believe it that my efforts of waiting and sms-ing has gone down the drain. Not to mention crying. Damnit.

So now, maybe i should just treat myself better. Maybe i should do things which i normally do but held off. Maybe i should think of myself for a change. Maybe i should be selfish.

I'm an individual yet i felt as though_. Maybe i should change something in my life starting with myself.....

Whatever. I'm just gonna fuck it and fuck care. And be selfish. And think of only myself. And maybe this makes me happier. And i won't be so upset or emo or whatever you like to call it.

Anyway. Out to K with long lost people. I didn't snap much except for Sk and Wy. Because I forgot until we were on the train and only these two were left with me. AHA.

It was kind of fun, not fab but well, fun. At least something different. And we were pressed for time. But still, it was rather enjoyable.

I'm over at Baby's house and apparently PSP has taken over my position. So i become the machine and PSP becomes the girlfriend. Sad huh?

But this is why i'm blogging. Maybe i should get a sub-boyfriend. Tamagotchi anyone ?! :D

Sentosa tommorow. Looking forward so much so much. Sun, Sand, Sea, ACTION! Minus the projects. SIGHS.

This holiday is gonna be filled with misery. So much misery of projects and more projects.

And i feel fucking redundant. I miss those good old times when things weren't so complicated.

I should have gone for that weekend gateaway but everything's too late. So many things to do and complete and account and answer and be responsible. Oh wait, didn't i say i will fuck it? SEE! I'm super procrastinating. That's why i say i'm so fucking weak. (I enjoy talking to myself because i'm pathetic because i can only talk to myself so get it over)

I think it's time to kiss goodbye to her
The her when she held everything so close and dear

I'm disappointed

I thought things were going well. But well, I thought.

Now i know what the fuck you take me for. Or maybe in my opinion, i just feel that i'm nothing. Or that, you don't bother to care. Or maybe im just fucking taken granted of.

Whatever i have done is redundant. Whatever i have tried to do is pointless.

I'm not trying to be emo shit nor whatever you call it.

This is just my thoughts and feelings. Fuck it when i keep saying maybe its the time to think over everything.

I thought over it and i really need some peace. Fuck myself for being so weak.

Get out of it please. Fucking get the hell out.

I'm still not over it yet.

YOU KNOW RIGHT

From the looks of my title i know you smart people should know what this post is right?

Oh, you mean you don't know? Neverminds, this is the reason why i am blogging right now when i should be in my comfortable bed tucked under the heavy but cosy comforter and propping with my bolster drifting slowly into the ever so lovely... LALALAND.

Oh, the PURE BLISS BUT for the sake of you, you, you and you who are interested as to what is going on (act to be interested la), Yours Truly is here to resolve the world's enigma. (I think i should sleep already. What's up with my melodrama?)

No la, to shortlive your happiness, this post is only for one person. And it's really just for that person.

This person is someone very different. Very different indeed. Lets call him/her B shall we?

B is able to make me cry and make me laugh uncontrollably. B is the person who i normally turn to. B is the one who does all the silly actions and brighten my day. B is the person who can make me angry at one moment and happy at another. B is the person who frustrates me by not answering whatever questions i pose cause B thinks it's not very sensible even though Yours Truly thinks it is a truly important question. And the list goes on.

Guess who B is?

No?

C'mon!!

Okay la. B stands for Baby.

Baby:
I have not been the perfect nor ideal girlfriend neither in the looks department nor the attitude department. I have constantly been throwing my tantrums and been rather childish at times. Even though i am still able to pull off such an act. (Like i'm only 18!) I have also been giving you a hell load of problems and pissing you off with certain things i do or say because i can't keep my emotions in check properly. And needless to mention my mood swings which could hurricane from 0 to 100 immediately. And there's so many other dumb/retarded/immature stuff i have done which either drove you crazy or drove you silly.

And although you refuse to entertain me at times or even listen to what i have got to say. Like to the extent i will keep whining and complaining that my words have no strength. (This isn't good Baby) Or at times, you neglect me (although i will kick up a great big fuss for you)

But i thank you for everything for the past few months. (No, we are not breaking up. We're still going on strongly.) Thank you for controlling and tolerating me, this nonsense, stubborn, immature PRINCESS with the attitude and cheering me up when i'm down.

Actually, i don't really know what to say because i'm not I'm not adept at expressing my thoughts out and loud anymore. Neither am i the one to really be sticky and mushy and stuff like that. I am not the dream girl you dream about. Neither am i that perfect girlfriend. But i try to be myself and try to make you a happy boyfriend by supporting and being there for you :) Or maybe irritating you.

So Baby, it sounds so cliche, so common, so ordinary, but yet, this is the strongest word i feel i could use.

Thank you for everything. From controlling my wilful acts and tolerating my
immaturity to being there for me when i needed support and caring for me,
Thanks.

I'm not the perfect girlfriend, neither are you the perfect boyfriend. But this is the way i want it to be because amongst the imperfectness, i see something perfect.

Maybe to some of you, you think that i'm being foolish. But nevertheless, whatever will be will be. I don't know what will happen the next day or even the next split second, so maybe it's time for us to learn how to cherish and not take things for granted. Especially things who are dear to you. At least, i gave my best. And for this, i'm able to answer to myself.

Don't ask me why suddenly i'm typing this entry. I don't know either. Maybe this is a pit stop for me to reflect? It's just in the spur of the moment.

And you know why am i constantly annoying him?

"Perfect love is not receiving, it's giving and forgiving. Perfect love is not red roses on valentine's day, it's the rest of the 364 days of knowing and loving you. Perfect love is not phone calls and stolen kisses, it's the silent smiles in memory of your sweetheart. Perfect love is not a grand wedding but spending a lifetime together. Perfect love is loving the one who annoys the hell out of you. And i think, im the one annoying the hell out of you :)"

So Now baby should know why am i always annoying him. It's no longer "beat = sayang or scold = love." My equation evolve to:

"Annoy more = Love more"

PS: So Baby love me alot too! HAHA.

To end this,

Happy 6 months Baby. I love you.

PPS: I know this is like abit dumb but it's for self-reflection and YES i will ask him to read. FOR ONCE. Whether he reads or not it's up to him. I have done my part.

Am i a priority or an option?

It's SUNDAY and i'm at Baby's house -.- Apparently he enjoys watching teevee in a standing position with both hands at the back. Does this make a show nicer? Maybe i should try it.

The holidays have officially started though i seem to be holiday-ing for quite some time. Spm re-test on X'mas eve. So utterly saddening. Nevertheless, suck it up, get it over and done with.

Twilight is out. Yes, with anticipated bated breath, IT.IS.FINALLY.OUT. The bitterness, sweetness into a whirlpool of romance and love. I'm so gonna watch it. Anyone?

The world's roller coaster ride pales in comparison with what i have been going through these few days. I don't really like the way i'm acting and feeling now. That i don't have a certain fixture of emotion and thoughts at one point of time. I can be happy but sad. Either at the same time or concurrently. I know it's ironical. But i don't know why.

Perhaps i do know why but i just can't get it out. I'm too smitten and delved into my own persnal thoughts. And the sad reality is, i have no idea how to extricate myself from this tangled web.

I'm not a child, but still, i crave for my own attention and surprises. Maybe i should mail to myself a X'mas card and act surprised (re-enact Mr bean). I'm just kidding. So my life has slowed its pace and it turned monotonous. From a colourful and vibrant to a black-and-white one.

Even my 18th birthday which i initially thought would be a blast sometime ago turns out so much otherwise. I don't intend or impend any celebrations but i didn't expect it to suck so much. Oh God, it's already over so why am i still harping on it.

Things are just so different now. Issit because i'm growing older or because i inhibit myself? I'm still young, i need my fun but i seem to have lost that element. How?

And i can't help asking am i the priority or just an option ?

Or worse, neither.

Maybe Christmas would do some good for me. Maybe it's time for me to yet again reflect and think about how things are going. Maybe it's time for me to sort out my own thoughts.

But it's still an enigma. Maybe even after all these Maybe's, i'm still back to square one.

Nevertheless, looking into my drawer and the Coach wallet makes me happier.

So Santa, Please make me a happy girl of 18 in 2008.

It might be all but a reverie now
but it may become a dejavu later.

Sorry

I know i'm not being an absolutely fantastic friend but like i'm trying to be at least a passable one?

I really had enough of all these shit and nonsense. It's my life. Let me live it my own way. And if my words pierced you, i'm sorry. It's just that. It's my relationship. So i think i should know what to do. Be it whether you determine i'm not well taken care of or that _, it's still my own problem.

Yes, true. I don't really feel all that secure with *. But i think, this is his duty not yours. Hence, i got uptight when things start to go haywire.

And Seriously, i never thought those kind of words would ever come from you. In a way it hurts but...

I did try to be there for you when i could. I know sometimes i just hold my silence because i felt that nothing i say could really do much. I just feel that a listening ear is better than a speaking mouth. Yes, i will berate the person but to what extent? How much can we berate?

I never count or take for granted that you were always there, you too, have your own time. And i don't blame you nor anyone when i'm upset or holed up alone.

This can just go on forever without a conclusion.

I'm sorry my friend for whatever harsh words i said. But i do hope, for just a listening ear.

At least everything now is CLEARED. I love you girl :)

Meeting Baby later. Am super dead now because chatted with long lost friend - Sheng Kiat till like 5 in the morning. Basically just chat and drag about Tuesday where we are going and stuff. That is after clearing misunderstanding with her :)

So Baby, don't be unhappy :( I still love you a lot -.-

I promised

I promised to upload the pictures. And this time, i didn't break it. Marvel at my enthusiasm. I have more to upload but give me time okay? Haha. I'm such a procrastinator.

Was supposed to meet Baby at 3pm and the time now is 3.05 and counting? Oops. But i think it's alright since there's nothing much. Teehee. See, for all of you. Please be honoured.

The surprise on Friday (Yesterday) was buying a movie ticket for bolt on my own accord. I thought he had wanted to watch/catch it but i think i was abit wrong.

Nevertheless, it's a movie to kill irritate-ness, anger and unhappiness. Can i have a dog like Bolt? So i won't be lonely at home. Yeah, i'm kidding myself. Because i think i will bling everything on my "Bolt". Maybe i should call my dog "Bot". Tsk, Carrie please stop talking to yourself.

Actually, i'm feeling quite disappointed. I don't know how to express it out either. Maybe just maybe. I think i have became a bit too non chalent. Has everything went up into smoke? I no longer feel excited, i feel it's a drag, a burden. I lose the strong desire and burning feeling. I lost it. And i don't know how to get it back.

To sum up, i lost hope and love for it already. Also widely known as passion. Maybe it was a decision made in a spur of the moment and now, i have to carry it for life. Yes, i regretted my choice years back. How now brown cow?

It's too late to start regretting though. What's done can't be undone anymore. Sighs. So i just hope this is a transitional period where i temporarily lose my thoughts, focus, passion, enthusiasm, love, hope and etc. I just hope that my battery is flat and it only needs recharging during this holiday.

The first picture is more of the lightings being the "focus" and the second being the lovely people as the "main target" of the lens and capture. HAHA. Yes, what the hell am i talking about.

11 more days to Christmas, 10 more days to SPM re-test and 44 more days to CNY. Am i looking forward? HAHA.

Santa, I really have no chimney, But no worries, one large plate of cookies and big cup of warm milk will be on standby at my windowsill. I'll leave my window slightly open, so if you need to come in, knock on the window pane, I'll definitely welcome you. If not, you could just drop the coach into my bedroom.

I seriously don't mind if you want to tabo cookies and milk back :)

This is how badly i want the wallet :( Why am i always repeating myself ?

Please be happy. Cause i'm not. What irony.

Today baby & me go walk walk.. hahahahahaha... & u dun piss me off again this time round.. cause im giving u another chance.. dun say suan xiao wei... baby bought me a new polo tee.. & i am so happy.. =) hahahahahahahaha... okie i got to go.. BYE BYE!!! HAHAHAHAHHA

I want...

I have not been eating what i should have been for the past four or five days. Or rather, i ate almost nothing?! Since whatever goes in, comes out via the mouth. Its a sickly feeling and i fucking hate it.

I'm like fucking hungry but i can't fucking eat anything :(

Went Bugis yesterday and the crowd made me felt so super sickkk. I was supposed to enjoy shopping but i had like no energy, strength and mood. Like it major sucks. Nevertheless saw familiar faces :) and retarded B****.

Baby book out already and he's at home. Meeting him only like in the evening. HAHA. I wanna go town :( But i have no idea what i want to buy. And my back aches. mailto:%5E$&*#@)$&

Today is the 12th and again i hope my decision is right. Or rather, i hope nothing fails me, my expectations are up. I hope.... so please don't let me down

Preview of layying birthday,


I think i should cut my fringe already.

Oh and i really want this !!! URGHS.

I think i have nothing else better to do so i'm typing like some random maniac. HAHA.

Santa, i have been really good. More cookies and milk? Fall it down my window please.

I didn't

I didn't attend SPM Test today because i was taken ill. Note: Very ill. whatever i eat or even drink, i'll just puke it out. And it sucks because i have nothing for my body to puke anymore. And i feel fucking uncomfortable. And i still got a re-test :( So sad but neverminds, i wanted to take SPM after all.

Anyway with regards to the previous post, maybe i should learn to forgive and forget. Or rather i should just learn to forget. Forgive is gonna be fucking hard. I just want to show me i'm not one to be easily triffled with. Especially when i don't given give a fuck about you at all :) Fucking boycott all you want, the more you irritate me, the faster your death would be. HUMPH.

I just don't want to make things difficult for Baby. Not because i'm lowering myself.

I have been like an 8 year old kid to Baby just now. Tee hee. Anyway, i hope this friday goes well. As a form of apology?

God, i'm fucking hungry but i can't eat. Someone save me. My tummy's rumbling and i have no strength for anything. Sentosa tommorrow ?

Yes, we are still friends. For now and Forever :) Thank you for clearing the air and we wouldn't be so awkward anymore.

I realised Christmas is around the corner and to those who still owe me my birthday present. Yours Truly shall be kind enough to reveal. (I'm jokin okay)

Nevertheless, I have been a very good girl this year so Santa please hear me :)
I'm in love with this. No doubt the price would be slashed to half due to Avril's additional 20% but i still can't buy because i'm buying something else. Heart pain. I really want this wallet :(

Hello Santa, drop this by my window because i have no chimmney. I will bring you cookies and milk.

Kiss goodbye

Two papers down and two more to go. On an official note, life sucks :(

So after HBM went to find Baby. I think it was the worst weekend. I'm not gonna elaborate on the issue. I just want to comment. And if you think it isn't right, please get the hell out of my blog. I was contemplating whether to blog about my unhappiness and anger inducing the factors but i think again, this is my blog, i'm unhappy, i can't talk to anyone so why can't i rant?

Again, i think this is so much worse than a flaming Lamborghini, racing Ferrari, F1 grand prix mixed together. Seriously. You went way beyond my limits. I tried to tolerate and tolerate and not let my emotions show but i'm sorry, i'm no fucking robot. I CAN'T.

I don't give a fuck, i don't give a shit, i don't give a damn if you are brainless or brainless. It's not because i have no guts nor because i'm shallow. It's because of HIS sake i shut my mouth up. Yes, again. I think i'm quite dumb reflecting back.

I don't think there's any of my fault. Maybe being pissed. But like who in the right frame of mind wouldn't be? Like I'm not entirely your friend doesn't means you don't have to consider my feelings. Like i'm some kind of control freak?

I didn't mention anything neither did i commented anything. If it's meant to be a joke, i'm sorry i can't be brainless like you and laugh it over. I have my own fucking ego despite the fact that i'm not a guy. Like in case you are dumb enough that you can't understand?

I can't believe i let my tears drop because of this. Seriously, i have changed. And i don't like it. No wait, because my feelings are hurt i cry.

I feel so much like a wimp. I don't know what to do.

Maybe i should just fuck it and fuck care anymore. I know what is it like to be sandwiched. It's a terrible feeling. Because i have been sandwiched for so many times. Friends or him? I chose the latter.

Now, i know how the former really feels. I'm sorry.

I want to tell a story about the teardrop.

A teardrop fell from her eyes. She picked it up and asked it why. The teardrop replied her,
"Your brain's too full to occupy me, Your heart's too filled for my standing and your eyes, are too taken up by the imagery that i have no place to stand in. I have no choice but to leave".
She allowed her teardrop to fall as she thought about the only thing which stood in her teardrop's way. And the thought lit a smile on her face.

But today, her teardrop fell again, she picked it up and asked it why. Again, the teardrop replied
"Your brain, heart, eyes are too melancholic that i can't help but leave to stop being melancholic" She let the tear drop and gazed up, alone.
The thought brought more teardrops.

She is Yours Truly :)

So kiss goodbye to her
the one who used to hold everything so dear

Over :)

Its over. Okays. Tlaw is over and i was fucking ecstatic but apparently when i come back home and after nua-ing i realised, HBM SUCKS TOO.

Like this is the common test period and i'm blogging more than usual. Because of the stress and severe headaches i get from the books.

Tlaw was rather fine, at least not to the extent of failing :) To me la. Haha. You might say hard work is paid off but really, too much hard work but i'm glad it's all over.

HBM is really sucking me up. Like i'm gonna die. Like i'm gonna breakdown. Like i wanna give up.

Lets see,

- What affects occupancy (Location,Branding, Pricing, Market Demand, Competition, Government rules and regulations)
- Main market segments (geographic, demographic, pyschographic, behaviouristic)
- Others (Base ad wholesale)
- Rates (corporate transient, corporate group, wholesale, consortia, promotional)

Yeah. Fuck it. I'm gonna die anyway. So please wish me a beautiful and peaceful death.

Actually, i'm going to start studying already. I hope i won't die :)

Wish me luck.

I hate you la :(

I think this is the best

Tlaw is in a few hours and to be precise in merely less than 16 hours. Which is less than one day hence i didn't mention "tomorrow".

I am not done with tort because i didn't memorize. My brain sends me this signal which is like this

"Tort is MCQ, don't have to pia so hard"

So like what the hell i know. Am I'm rather stressed out so I'm venting out my frustration. And I'm thinking, it's merely common tests and we are all so fucked up. What about exams? Will i die? Ever single semester there's bound to be one killer module. For instance ATRM last sem, and now law? Not only law, hbm as well because i don't understand a single fuck except CRS and GDS combine together and VIOLAH!

I read an interesting article about a couple quarreling because of their ex-es. It sounds familiar no? I don't understand why. Maybe it's because of this that people hardly or never ever wish to mention about their ex-es.

But in my opinion, being a weirdo (yes, i know!). I rather my boyfriend talk freely about it. I'm cool with it. Everyone has their own past. I have mine too and i know those of you who know about my past know tough it was. On the contrary, if he is being too evasive, i will often think that he's not over her yet.

Maybe i would want to know because I'm nosey. Or maybe because i want to know more about him. But largely, every single female hates to admit. They want to know about their boyfriend's ex so as to make a comparison. A comparison between themselves and her(s).

No doubt i do that too but i don't let it affect the relationship. She might be a fucking hot babe with a fucking gorgeous body that every body dreams of and desire but hey, its the past already! If they have moved on then good, if they haven't then i suggest, you take a short break from him so as to let him decide. Of course, in the short break you're entitled to your own freedom rather than be at his beck and call (this is oddly familiar)

So my advice to his young girl of 17. Although she won't see it or she might never see it (i enjoy talking and evaluating to myself) and I'm not much older, but well, if he really can't decide leave him to writhe and die (i'm joking), just take a step back first. And stop demeaning yourself saying you're no better than her. You're better in her in some ways or he wouldn't have gotten together with you in the first place (even if you think you're just a buoy)

So I should really hobble back to Tlaw and bury my nose, no, my entire head into Tlaw. Baby just called and he's going to the gym :( I WANT TO GYM. And he wants a second girlfriend :( I'm just kidding. One princess that is Yours Truly is already so difficult to handle and maintain. What more two? But to think about it, what am i going to do if it happens. Cry? Kill him? Pay back? No, I don't want to know and neither does Baby, I PRESUME.

So hello to my new boyfriend - offer, acceptance, consideration and intention, frustration, duress, mistake, tort, incapacity, illegality. Re McArdle, Adams v Lindsell, Felthouse v Bindley, Carlill v Carbolic Smoke Ball Co...........

No, I need my real boyfriend :( Neverminds. Weekends are coming and all the majors would be over.

I need a hug :(

I want my fairytale

I'm fucking stuck

Its so ironical that i can be okay earlier and now i just zombie back to the unhappy zone.

It should be the mugging. Yes, definitely. But i haven't really been MUGGING. Its just 3 fucking chapters down. I have 1 and a half more fucking chapters to fucking go. Why the FUCK is law so tough so tough :( Contract 3 just zap up everything.

Now, i'm also thinking of problems. It just can't stop bugging me. Its not that i don't want to say but i find it difficult to put it across.

I don't want to be a whiny and needy and useless and insecure and unhappy and grumpy and frumpy and irritating girlfriend. But fuck, i'm really at my fucking wit's end.

It's just one fucking module. And its like going to zap me of everything.

But i'm feeling better now. Maybe i should do this often.

TLaw is fucking calling for me.

FUCK YOU

u don't love me, do you :(

Happy Birthday

I was kindly requested to blog by silent readers. That sounds not no right but whatever it is, for the sake of you people, i'm going to BLOG out of my hectic timings.

Law test on Friday. HBM saturday. How sad. A saturday :( Law i'm two chapters down so be proud of me in merely two hours :)

No doubt this 18th birthday wasn't a good one because of the disappointments and happenings but nevertheless, it's supposed to be a happy occasion. And i think it quite is based on the surprises.

Celebrated advanced birthday with Baby & Co on Saturday. Before that went AMK for levis jeans and to receive a bunch of blue roses and balloons from _. (They ask me not to put their names here because they don't want people to know). It was my first surprise and they made m run up and down AMK Hub. Oh, to clarify, the roses were from a bunch of people so don't worry Baby :)

Thereafter went to Baby's house and this BIG BABY don't want to wake up. &%^$!@?# ANGRY! Hahas but in the end went to IT show at expo and parking was a killer. The crowd almost make me die on the spot but nevertheless quicken to buy hard disk from Maxtor and headed back.

Went to Stonegrill for dinner. Reviews: The ambience was nice, the food was good and the company of Baby was great but one thing is being the natural tourism student, i think they should improve on the menu. So much of FABM. I think my menu's so pretty, they should use it... LIKE NOT, it's so expensive because it's so chio and pretty and heartmelting and gaze-stopping. Okays. back to topic.

After stone grill went to K. And Baby surprised me with a cake. Like i don't know how he produced the cake but i was stunned when i saw him carrying the cake. Not to mention, damn pai seh as well. He didn't get me anything but i'm perfectly cool with it. Its the thought that matters. So stop asking and stop the critics, it's not helping.

Sunday didn't do much and slacked at his place before hanging around at AMK hub again. Oh, Baby and Daddy, Mummy, Jo got me another cake. Yes, my birthday is filled with CAKES and more CAKES.

Yesterday was my actual birthday. Switched off my phone because i need to sleep and woke up to nearing 60 messages. Thanks a whole lot people for remembering my birthday :) Lay Ying & Co jio-ed me out to Bugis. Headed to SSDC with Hui Qi for BTT booking. EXCITED!!! Because of this from the initial meeting time of 5 pm we dragged to 6pm. Sorry Sorry!

Went to eat steamboat and they surprised me again. Speechless i tell you. Make up set. And i thought they didn't have time since common tests and e-learning filled up every single space. Its much appreciated to the ten of you.
Lay Ying, Hui Qi, Shu Zhen, Jia Wen, Chu Wen, Ariana, Yao Wei, Yong Liang, Donovan and most surprisingly GARRETT.

From Garrett i was only expecting maximum a message like "Hey Happy birthday, Fuck you"

HAHA.

Thanks Evonne and boyfriend for the skirt from Pull and Bear
Thanks _(people) for the bunch of flowers and the balloon
Thanks LayYing & Co for the surprise
Thanks Daddy Mummy for the ang pows
Thanks Alan for the chocolates
Thanks Edgar for the Royce
Thanks G for the notes and sparkling juice
Thanks Liz & Co for the cake which ends up in my face
Thanks everyone who messaged me, msn me, called me, comment me, pm me, blog me. LOLS.

And thanks Baby for the weekend. Though it was nothing much and nothing in particular. But thanks for being there :D And Kokmeng too (i think he was the one who bought the cake)

It may not be the best birthday and in fact i was the worse because of stuff which happened. But to those who celebrated with me, thank you for making it memorable.

I'm 18 so what's my next step? Its giving me jitters.

Pictures uplodaded after CTs.

I promise. But promises are meant to be broken. HAHA

OH YEAH! BABY BROKE THE RECORD. He sang me "happy birthday" for more than 5 times i think. Or was it more.

And to you. Fuck off :)