Over my dead body

Apparently i'm so not over the episode. Because the same old fucked up cycle happens AGAIN.

I repeat, AGAIN. Can you fucking believe it that my efforts of waiting and sms-ing has gone down the drain. Not to mention crying. Damnit.

So now, maybe i should just treat myself better. Maybe i should do things which i normally do but held off. Maybe i should think of myself for a change. Maybe i should be selfish.

I'm an individual yet i felt as though_. Maybe i should change something in my life starting with myself.....

Whatever. I'm just gonna fuck it and fuck care. And be selfish. And think of only myself. And maybe this makes me happier. And i won't be so upset or emo or whatever you like to call it.

Anyway. Out to K with long lost people. I didn't snap much except for Sk and Wy. Because I forgot until we were on the train and only these two were left with me. AHA.

It was kind of fun, not fab but well, fun. At least something different. And we were pressed for time. But still, it was rather enjoyable.

I'm over at Baby's house and apparently PSP has taken over my position. So i become the machine and PSP becomes the girlfriend. Sad huh?

But this is why i'm blogging. Maybe i should get a sub-boyfriend. Tamagotchi anyone ?! :D

Sentosa tommorow. Looking forward so much so much. Sun, Sand, Sea, ACTION! Minus the projects. SIGHS.

This holiday is gonna be filled with misery. So much misery of projects and more projects.

And i feel fucking redundant. I miss those good old times when things weren't so complicated.

I should have gone for that weekend gateaway but everything's too late. So many things to do and complete and account and answer and be responsible. Oh wait, didn't i say i will fuck it? SEE! I'm super procrastinating. That's why i say i'm so fucking weak. (I enjoy talking to myself because i'm pathetic because i can only talk to myself so get it over)

I think it's time to kiss goodbye to her
The her when she held everything so close and dear