Two papers down and two more to go. On an official note, life sucks :(
So after HBM went to find Baby. I think it was the worst weekend. I'm not gonna elaborate on the issue. I just want to comment. And if you think it isn't right, please get the hell out of my blog. I was contemplating whether to blog about my unhappiness and anger inducing the factors but i think again, this is my blog, i'm unhappy, i can't talk to anyone so why can't i rant?
Again, i think this is so much worse than a flaming Lamborghini, racing Ferrari, F1 grand prix mixed together. Seriously. You went way beyond my limits. I tried to tolerate and tolerate and not let my emotions show but i'm sorry, i'm no fucking robot. I CAN'T.
I don't give a fuck, i don't give a shit, i don't give a damn if you are brainless or brainless. It's not because i have no guts nor because i'm shallow. It's because of HIS sake i shut my mouth up. Yes, again. I think i'm quite dumb reflecting back.
I don't think there's any of my fault. Maybe being pissed. But like who in the right frame of mind wouldn't be? Like I'm not entirely your friend doesn't means you don't have to consider my feelings. Like i'm some kind of control freak?
I didn't mention anything neither did i commented anything. If it's meant to be a joke, i'm sorry i can't be brainless like you and laugh it over. I have my own fucking ego despite the fact that i'm not a guy. Like in case you are dumb enough that you can't understand?
I can't believe i let my tears drop because of this. Seriously, i have changed. And i don't like it. No wait, because my feelings are hurt i cry.
I feel so much like a wimp. I don't know what to do.
Maybe i should just fuck it and fuck care anymore. I know what is it like to be sandwiched. It's a terrible feeling. Because i have been sandwiched for so many times. Friends or him? I chose the latter.
Now, i know how the former really feels. I'm sorry.
I want to tell a story about the teardrop.
A teardrop fell from her eyes. She picked it up and asked it why. The teardrop replied her,
"Your brain's too full to occupy me, Your heart's too filled for my standing and your eyes, are too taken up by the imagery that i have no place to stand in. I have no choice but to leave".
She allowed her teardrop to fall as she thought about the only thing which stood in her teardrop's way. And the thought lit a smile on her face.
But today, her teardrop fell again, she picked it up and asked it why. Again, the teardrop replied
"Your brain, heart, eyes are too melancholic that i can't help but leave to stop being melancholic" She let the tear drop and gazed up, alone.
The thought brought more teardrops.
She is Yours Truly :)
So kiss goodbye to her
the one who used to hold everything so dear
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
1 comment:
well goodbye got so much in itself. It amazes me.
Acai Berry
Post a Comment