Today isn't a good day.

Mummy's birthday! I meant yesterday. So Happy Birthday Mummy! Although your incessant nagging pisses me off with your menopausal mood swings and we often get involved in a heated argument, i still love you many many many much much much :)

Today is Saturday. But it isn't a good day. First, I woke up super early and i'm tired. Because i have washed up and stuff, i can't fall back to sleep. So i'm effing effing tired. Thank god for concealer, foundation, make up in general. Or i would look like some zombie whose gonna invade Earth and the police would just catch me and throw me into some place where i get de-zombified. I'm thinking too much.

Afternoon met Baby. I was pretty bored -.- But thanks to Aly Aly Ong who pei-ed me for so looonnnggg. I hope you're feeling better Aly Ong! All of us are macam on the same boat i guess. Maybe all of us should just don't care. In this way, we don't have to ponder and mull over this and that. In this way, we can live in our own happy lives. I think my world would then be a happier place for myself (: Sighs. But i still think i'm just some fucking vase and i fucking hate to be a fucking vase.

Then went pool with Baby and friends. I got pissed with myself. I MUST brush up on pool. I MUST NOT wear skirts to pool. I MUST NOT wear falsies. My falsies hurt my eye so much, now its swollen and red. OUCH. No wonder the nearing double vision. It hurts like #*&@#(!? Sighs. Want pretty then don't want life already. What a direct translation.

Anyway. Sometimes i really really scoff at people who think they really have it all when they have nothing, not even their fucking balls. They live in their own world and pass judgement and stereotype people. I super dislike it, maybe even to the extent of hatred. Like hello, i think i really have more brains up there as compared to you people. A simple thing can be resolved easily but you guys just make it more confusing then ever and in the end, we are still back to square one -.- Super lame. And you guys don't even want to hear what i have got to offer. Dumb asses.

Another point to chew on, is it always true that you reap what you sow. Because apparently, this Does Not Apply to Yours Truly. I'm getting seriously un-hyped and fucked up about this whole thing. If you're not gonna give in your best shot, this isn't gonna work. If this isn't gonna work, i think both of us would just feel indignant and upset and depressed and sucidal. At least for me la. I don't know about you. Show some CONCERN is that so difficult?

Okays. I have been getting upset and more upset. And this isn't gonna help my incessant gastric pains.

Now i wish, the Earth could just swallow me up and i can happily vanish into thin air. For now, I think i feel happier this way. I will feel much happier. MUCH MUCH HAPPIER as compared to the wreck i am in NOW.

After much consideration, i think i should think curbing his cigarette intake. He's not happy and neither am i. I'm unhappy because i fail to stop. He's unhappy because i keep nagging him to stop. I'm gonna wash my hands off. If not, this would make me fucking dulan. Because i hate empty promises. END OF STORY.

FANTASTIC. NOW I'M PEEVED. FUCKING FUCKING PEEVED. CAN I USE ALL THE VOCABS I KNOW? mailto:$%5E#*#%@&*$%^#*$%*%&#^

and to you-know-who, thanks for complimenting me but sorry, i'm not interested. Even if i'm single, i'm still not interested. Or maybe next lifetime? Thank you (:

A: 不要羡慕别人的幸福，有一天自己的幸福终究会出现。
C: 说道容易，做道难。等待并不是一切。