Pictures of You, Pictures of Me, combines and it forms - Happy Family

Baby's on outfield at some ulu place. Even with the advanced technology, its impossible to reach him. Simply because handphones aren't allowed :( At this modern time and day and age and era, whatever have you, handphones aren't a luxury but a necessity. Agree? HAHA.

So i haven't heard his voice for like 3 days nearing 4? The time period seem to relatively short but i miss him. An undeniable fact. And because i was super ill, i didn't send him a message before he left :( I very want to but, sighs, lets not elaborate. Thinking about it makes me depressed. And Allen was mocking at my stupid face when i happily replied her that Baby's outfield ends on Thursday -.- Happy cannot meh~

Nevertheless, these past few days were quite packed. So i was quite tired out and i could actually fall asleep during the short 5 mins break during HBM lecture. This is how tired i get from school :( Oh oh oh. And Obama won today :) I support him because of some unknown instinct reasons. Hopefully, this would lighten the economic crisis as i forsee 2009 to be bad, very bad. Lesser spending and pulling purses tight.

Things happened between the both of us if readers are interested. I'm not gonna say what or why. Leave it to enigma and only the close few knew what happened. It's kond of painful to be stuck in between your close friend and your boyfriend and yet have to pacify both sides. Sometimes i really feel that i'm running out of strength to tackle all this stuff. And i all i feel like doing is to rant and to let out my steam or just curl out somewhere and be silent. But to my friend, could you let me do what i think is right? No?

I don't know if he's reading my blog. Maybe yes, maybe no. Actually, it doesn't really matter. HAHA. If he sees what i posted for him, good. If not, then too bad. So don't ask me, "does gary read your blog?" I'm not him so i don't know.

And again, this is an apology post. Yes, i'm always doing something bad. I'm sorry Baby. Sorry for what i said and how i acted on that Sunday. Seriously, i didn't want it but i got too upset. And Sorry for what happened last weekend. Neither of it was entirely yours to be blamed for. But yet, i acted in such a way.

Perhaps i was too selfish to consider only my feelings all the time. I forgot that you too, would get tired and just want to laze around. I forgot that you too, need time to ponder over your thoughts. Sometimes i just get too caught up with trying to spend time with you that i forgot, you need your own space.

Although its hard to understanding at times, hard to be fine, hard to be dependent on myself. And sometimes, i get disappointed because i get too little of you. But i think i can manage. All i need is that bit of attention, that security, that love. It sounds a lot i know. HAHA.

You're not the perfect boyfriend. Neither are you the sweetest, most romantic or whatever. But what more can i ask for when you already tried to give me your all? Maybe this is just sufficient. I don't need ample to be happy, sufficient would suffice.

I asked you if you think we can last. Both of us shrugged our shoulders and you said its up to me. Seeing things now, i think i'm the troublemaker and you, the peacemaker. Sorry Baby :( Although i do hope this would last but nevertheless, the future is always a question mark, definitely an uncertainty. Hence the saying, tomorrow remains a mystery that's why life is full of surprises. I'll try to make this work.

Whatever it is, unless fate forbids, trust me when i say i'll be there. When you get tired of running, turn around and i'll be by your side cheering you on. When you lose faith, picture yourself in my eyes, and you'll see the elite in you. When you're upset or down, i'll cheer u up with my never ending stupid actions and dumb jokes. When you need a shoulder or a listening ear, you can count on me. When life's starting to be a drag, a warm hug would lighten your load:)

For every single moment or thing i pissed or upset you, im sorry. It wasn't on purpose. I haven't been a very good girlfriend, this is a fact i know. Whatever it is, you were always the peacemaker, very unlike me. Or rather, The exact opposite of yours truly. Thanks love :)



So cute right. Thursday is commmiiinnnggggg....

And my birthday is coming in like 3 more weeks and I'll officially be EIGHTEEN. That magical number which allows me to do whatever i want. Errr. Okay la. Not everything but MOST. Although under the law i'm still an infant/minor. HAHA. It sounds abit wwwrrrooonnnggg. Whatever, i can sue you but it doesn't make me very happy. Okays, i'm talking to myself, AGAIN.

I received my first birthday present. Yeah. Its super duper early but thanks Clara! And Grace wanted to purchase couple lab vouchers for me and *. Haha! Damn funny when she sound so dejected over the phone. My birthday still long la please.

I told Daddy i want that pink volkswagen beetle and he told me, "I think the toy shop is just round the corner" :( Neverminds. Daddy, just get me either

1. Sony's PINK Camera, or
2. Coach Wallet, or
3. an Ang Bao filled with cash amounting to 500 bucks.

Carrie, stop dreaming. HAHA. Why Coach not LV right? Cause Coach is "C", ITS MY GOD DAMN INITIALS. And its cheaper :) Okays. Its time for me to wake up. But i really want either of the options :( Neverminds, i shall SAVE. For now, dream on, Carrie.

I'm not intending to celebrate my birthday lavishly. There were debates on chalet or hotel but NO. Because, i don't like. In the end people would be fighting over space and i feel bad if i do leave out people. No?

And i want to go on the flyer. BADLY. FLYER FLYER CARRIE WANTS TO GO ON SINGAPORE FLYER.

Okays. I need some media therapy. Some pictures i edited.



The people who play a part in my life :)

And of course, the love of my life.

我要的幸福很简单-我只要你爱我:)

Love is love when it incorporates the five tastes - sweet, sour, bitter, salty.