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CAUSE GOT PASSWORD. SO EXCITING.

Anyway, want the password ask me hokays ?

LOVE YOU!

It makes me wonder

I think i ate something wrong. I'm dying now from all the puking and growling of stomach :( Plus i'm having a fever :'(

Food for thought. What if the person whom you always thought love you and would always be there for you, suddenly left you ? How will you feel ?

Will you make her stay or would you embrace your singlehood ?

More than often, we take things for granted. But its only a matter of time, that "thing" leaves you. No matter how much she loved you, you made her give up because you didn't cherish her when she's with you. Everything she once did, she did it for you. But have you ever spared a thought for her and stand in her point?

When she's ill did you bother to take care of her ? When she's alone do you bother to make sure she's not bored ?

I don't think so.

Whatever it is, be prepared to lose her eventually if things goes on.

You may not mind now, but maybe you'll regret in future.

Because, shes leaving. Leaving you.

Pissed.

Fucking pissed. Do you know?

So this is how FRIENDS should be. Looking you up when they need help or they are bored or they run into trouble. Seriously. How many times already. All you care is to go out and have fun. PERIOD. The what about the rest? I can't be bothered by you already. And you can say that i'm petty but i never ever forget that fucking "sorry-i'm-drunk" slap. Hello, Fuck you fucktard whore. Shit, you really look like one. TSK.

And i'm just acting friendly to _. Please lor. Copy cat. People do this you also want. Everything you must zup. Sibeh buay tahan. I felt like asking you to don't be so xia lan and act big. Seriously. Everything want people accommodate you.

Have been unhappy recently. But i don't know why. Sometimes i really feel empty inside. Have i got to know too much?

That thought is persistant. You didn't bother to catch.

I need a hug now.

也许在你忙忙碌碌的生活里，缺少了我这个人并不是个问题。
也许我只不过是个非常平凡的女人
也许这一切都不应该。。。

Shake Your Pom Pom

Shake Your Pom Pom - Missy Elliott



I know this is a damn old song but it's nice hokay! HAHA.

Have been busy being at home and outside the past few days. Mostly with Baby. And i have been playing facebook's word challenge. It's seriously addictive. Can't get my hands off it.

Tommorrow's interview at OUB centre for events management thingy. I think it would be a good experience if i'm selected and reflects well on the resume too!

It really feels good to know that you can watch movies, do whatever you like without having to brood about studying. Well, i still have one more so wish me luck :) I need plenty of it for this. Feeling super uptight just merely thinking about it.

B and i have been going on pretty well. At least both of us are trying to make it last and work. Maybe whatever _ said was redundant. Maybe i really should trust him and not listen to _.

Nevertheless, i was really unhappy about a particular certain someone. I wish he/she would just stop interrupting and talking to him/herself. I really have no idea what to react and it's like i'm not interested in what you have got to think. Of me or of my friends or my relationship.

I really can't be bothered with you, it's just _ saying that i reply you but that doesn't mean you can pour your whatever unhappiness, ungain etc to me. It's your problem not mine. I have my own to solve.

I know and i believe my boyfriend is capable to protect me from whatever harm you think i will land myself into -.- I'm not addicted to drugs nor am i some fucking ah lian. Even my group of friends are into such stuff, they are my friends and i believe they won't hurt me either. So shove this into you...

GET A FREAKING LIFE.

I miss baby :(

It's like ecstasy, i love i hate you

If you do...

Understand me, you wouldn't have acted like that. It pains me so much.

All papers down and i'm a happy girl. I can catch up with friends, work, slack. To sum up, to do whatever i want to do or whatever i feel like doing - including blogging with peektures.

On a side note, Boyf is leaving for China soon :( I will miss her like how a martian misses mars when put in Singapore. She's leaving on the 4th or 5th. CAN YOU DON'T GO. Even though like we kind of drifted apart but please, you still have a place in my heart cause you're my boyfriend and i still share things with you. EEK. So mushy right. I know you will confirm say i so er xin -.- But 6 months leis. Damn long eh :( Time faster pass. AND PLEASE MSN/WEBCAM ME OR WHATEVER LA OKAY. Your boyfriend important but your girlfriend here is also important okay ALLEN LUO WAN LING.

Oh yeah, idk if Dickson reads my blog but i heard you're going "ji nan" (so difficult) so take care too and update me okay chao ah beng? :)

Well, i had a tiff with _. Sometimes it just hurts me so much that up till now, you don't really understand me.

I know my friends and I are still young and we have yet to experience things or that we don't know how to handle things yet. I know you're worried for my safety and everything but the words you used to show your care. Makes me feel so little, so dumb, so child.

I did everything i can for you. To make this work, i sacrificed alot but i didn't mind cause i know we would be happy. But the thing is, it hurts when i heard you said something like that about my friends. Although you might not mean what i thought but that is what i feel. I strayed away from them and lost contact because i know we would have too little time together if i continued my ways. My friends were good enough to understand my plight and safely kept their distance but never once did they seriously broke ties with me just because i overlook them for you. And never once did they ask me to choose them or you despite me meeting them only when needed.

I used to put them as my priority, but after being with you, they aren't anymore.

It hurts when i hear you say such things which even though you didn't mean it in a malicious way as i intepreted. Because they took into account i regarded our relationship as something serious and they respected us and not merely stay away when i need a listening ear or when you aren't free. Do you know that?

And i was angry when i pushed you away, i didn't mean to do it. But at that time, it still hurts.

Am i really in the wrong love? Or are we really not suited?

I'm just not top on the list, am i ?


Anyway.

Diana, Happy birthday to you girl! :)

*idk if she reads this, me pretend she does.

If you do understand me and love me, hold me, i'm breaking down

How to

Study..

Fuck law fuck everything. Now i just need a pillar of strength.

Sometimes i ponder and think, do you love me more than yesterday but less than tomorrow?

Because, sometimes i feel lost but i don't dare to question.

Am i being paranoid?

And now, I'm the unsure one about her own feelings. But how to bring it across to you without you thinking ____.

I missed this

It's the lugging never ending nose piled in heaps of books, brain even more cramped than buses in India, eyes prying to open apart and the body trying to keep awake period of time.

Yes, the exams period. And guess what? I.HAVE.NOT.STARTED. I know standing ovation for me. But no encores i'm sorry. See, i'm so petrified that i have no fucking idea what am i typing.

Since i was taking a breather, i browsed through my old old pictures and marvelled at my change.

From joining to quitting, from clubbing to not clubbing, from everyday out to lesser outs, from menthol light to fresh air, from inked to the un-inked. Yeah. I guess this change did me some good. But as i mentioned 982340985 times, i missed my past.

Isn't this like the choiest ever ? Sighs. Bye bye. I guess i won't be having another till i'm 20 odd?

Mummy just warned me against tattoos (like again!). I guess she really abhors the very idea of ink on my body. Well, what to do. When i grow up, maybe i would. But till then...

Or maybe i will just chicken out when i get older.

Ah, the process of growing.

Anyway post u a question,

What if one day your other half tells you he/she does not have feelings for you anymore and ask you to make a choice to stay together or break up.

Which would you choose?

Oh disclaimer: Gary and I are fine and doing on well :) We'll get married like 23984903458 years later? HAHA. I'm joking. But yes, currently we are going on strong and fine.

Lg ice cream is super loved. Although it gives me a heck of problems. Similar to the gift sender eh? :x

The scarring.

Do you know

Sometimes it will hurt ?

Like when you know too much of things that you shouldn't know. But it was because of curiosity.

And then now, you look at the person in a different light. Your mind will start wandering by itself like some lost dog.

And you will just start to compare yourself. Why was this person like that in the past but not like it now.

Sometimes i really have to admit, ignorance is bliss.

Whatever it is, this is what i keep telling myself,

"You know what you should not have known. This the price you pay for being curious. Suck it up, Fuck it and just live with the shit"

Yes, I know but undeniably,

i hate this part, i can't stand these tears.

But what to do when you've already found out? Other than ponder and think about the difference there's nothing much else i can do.

she said, "I'm everything she's not and she's everything i am. Therefore, the difference".

Can you likely imagine the pain ?

I said...

i'm so gonna update with peektures right? So here it goes for the past few idk how many years? millions? billions? Zillions? HAHA. Exaggeration.

I was complaining like how my boyfriend is uber ROMANTIC. NOT. So to prove himself wrong, he did something super unexpected. In my opinion, it is truly wildly unexpected. This kind of thing should most prolly be my doing but well, I'M HAPPY.

He stuffed this into my bag on the day when i went tampines to do project and ended up taking like 92834752 years to reach serangoon. The thing is, i only told him i like the wallet the previous day.

Yes, Envy me.

I seriously digggg this. Not only because it's pink but also cause it's from my guy :) It's not the price that matters, it's the effort that counts. Serangoon - Dhoby Ghaut. And the tough part was my calls since i being the petty little woman gets pissed and peeved when i call a person and he/she never pick up.

I'm sorry Baby!

After this was our Big Day.

No, Not Marriage. His birthday la. It's OUR because i spent two months to arrange make and decide what to buy. Many much thanks to his friends :) And my pocket :)

So cute right? HAHA. I uber like this photo.

We were trying to play some behind the bars kind of scene but it didn't totally work out. But, still, i guess this is the best picture of US on that day.

The cake which i 环岛追追追 to get. It was seriously hard work because i as chiong-ing law and the scrapbook at the same time. Nevertheless, it's work well done.

He picked me up at Vivo and we headed to Novena for Steamboat :) Everyone was late and it got baby uber pissed. And i was late too! I'm sorry but i really rushed like some mad dog :(

So in the end let's summarise.

Stayed over at his place and rushed home in the morning to doll up, rushed project and scrapbook, forgot breakfast and lunch. After that rushed to vivo to get the cake. Baby was pissed because everyone was late. And steamboat-ed. Passed him the wonderfully done scrapbook which i'm fucking proud of. My first time doing it okay! And the finale present. Though we quarrelled over it. Or rather, i made a fucking big fuss, but neverminds, i'm sorry. (Because i spent a lot of time and money searching and yeah).

In the end, made up, everything was alright. We forgave each other, K-ed, quarrelled again over _ but everything was fine because he knows i only love him. Cut cake. Nice cake by the way. And la kopi and K.O. at his place.

I know the finale present right? WAIT.

Make a guesss???? It's horse with the rider macam going to war. Starts with a B (stands for Baby. Yuck. I'm so corny)

Yes, Burberry classic. I super love the checks so of course i shall present this to the person i love :) Okay, i know, the jitters.

Combination :) Maybe it's like coincidence? HAHA.

And Vday.

I fucking swear i was quite fucked out in the right way. I didn't expect anything from him. And i threw my fugly tantrum on him cause he keep cancelling and not cancelling to meet. And apparently, Yours Truly really hates last minute things.

And i do know hes getting something for me but i expect something like soft toy? chocolates? roses? But this is what i got.

LG ICE CREAM IN PINK. Yes, I know I'm lucky so i should stop being whiny and throwing tantrums at him. But you know, i can't help it! Nevertheless, i was quite shocked.

G: can you help me spray the freshner

C: Okay. Take peekture first.

G: Now can you spray?

C: huh. Orh.

And then there is this uber big card that melts my heart and a rose. Although it's at his place. Its deeply appreciated.

Baby, Thank you isn't sufficient but as i'm typing this, i'm backspacing as well because i can't find a word to truly express how i feel.

Shame on someone who can make anyone speechless with her words.

Sorry for all the tantrums and unreasonableness i undertook. I have apologized again and again but i never seem to be able to quit. Sorry B!

Happy 8 months to you too!

Love you.

"It really isn't how much it cost. Seriously. What matters to me was the effort and sincerity to all these."

:)

It isn't the gift that matters, it's the thought that counts.

It may be something which cost 1 buck but i will still be satisfied because of the effort taken. But nevertheless, it came unexpected and i'm loss for words.

And i'm sorry for throwing you my tantrums when it isn't your fault.

Will update soon.

Thank you, love :)

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I was talking to kit kit and i really found out i changed a lot. A whole lot. I have no idea what caused this change. She said Gary. Yeah, maybe. I don't know either.

To some this change is good to some it's bad. No more drinking, clubbing, smoking, lion dance, late night outs, ton, tattoo. Somehow, i feel that I'm not me anymore, i reverted back.

I just discovered something i should not have known. Curiosity perhaps. But like who wouldn't be.

Maybe I'm simply not the real one. Or that it's just a sub.

Whatever it is, the past haunts me deep and down. I really wonder now what would life be like if i had chosen another route instead of this.

Would i be happier or would i be more upset?

You forgot as usual. Unlike the past for _.

i already

"I already tried my best. Mummy, i already did. But daddy, why is it still like that?

why am i still feeling so miserable?

Why can't i smile happily again?

Mummy, Daddy, why ???"

i don't care fuck that shit.

I don't care fuck that fucking shit.

This is all bullshit. To think i will smile happily. I should have known.

Fucking bullshit.

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Now. I'm starting to think. Am i really significant to you ?

Please don't let me_. I'm on the verge. Because all these hurt so much.

Maybe.

I'm not feeling so good right now. The thought has been bothering me and i couldn't express it out to anyone. It sounds so pathetic but i couldn't relate to anyone at all.

So for a start,

I don't really feel loved. I don't feel important. I don't feel happy now.

To summarise, i'm feeling down. Very down.

Maybe i'm not all that good enough to deserve something good.

And i don't think this is good.

Pretty Pretty Please

I'm rushing madly for time right now and i'm feeling anxious/pertrified/excited all in one.

Butterflies are flying all around in my stomach. I'm not sure what reaction i will receive. But i do hope it's a positive one.

But well, even if it's negative, i pray hard that i won't cry on the spot.

My heart's thumping like a wild rabbit. God, please, give me strength.

I'm shivering as i'm typing this. I really am. Please let it be good..

Please don't let me break down.

Please.

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God didn't help me. But i don't know what i'm feeling now. It's a mixed feeling and it isn't good.

No mood to blog, till tmr,.

Really wierd.

Wierd, Really wierd. I have been meeting people i really don't like this few days, or rather consecutively with the exception of yesterday. Tsk.

First was on the first day on CNY. That self proclaim fucking chio but i think she is fat, ugly and old bitch with no fashion nor make up sense.

Second day was pretty fine. Just that my helix irritate the shit out of me because i became mickey mouse. And even when i stood still, the pain i still can feel and it was throbbing pain like some kind of crazy fuck shit. But well, i can't blame anyone but myself for piercing and still eating hei bee hiam like it's going to be extinct soon.

Third day was rather smooth just a lil' bored and the wedding game suck balls. I thought it will be nice. But then again, assumption.

Fourth day had IS and irritate the shit out of me. Okay, this only i know. Interested? Ask me.

Then today. Oh my fucking god i tell you. Today is like some kind of combo.

Please la, i'm not trying to hao lian or what okay. I was just concerned and i asked. And i didn't have any idea how much you got. And i only asked like once, with no hidden agenda or propaganda or whatsoever ? You don't have to say those words as though i purposely want you to know we did better. I seriously did not know.

And it was just a few marks difference. I don't see the point in comparing who got the higher or whatever shit because competing is not my style. Wouldn't you be interested to know how much another person get ? Oh wait, i was the one who asked you, but errr, you asked me back right? So yours truly ASSUME you're interested as well.

Oh and come on, i'm not so dumb or childish to go "YAY! I score better". N-O. NO. It was just for curiosity sake. And i didn't rebutt you on the spot because there was just so many people. And this is not the final mark for goodness god sake. CB lah.

Moving on. I know i really don't like you and i ASSUME(this word is like super good to use) you don't like me either. So the feeling is mutual. I offended you alot of times, but you too have stepped on my tail a good many time as well. This, we are fair.

I really don't care if i had offended you by saying how sucky your girlfriend is and saying shes a cheapo but it's true. Why buy fake LV if you can't afford and still want to bluff your friends it's real and backstab/outcast another girl when she exposed the truth that its a fake. The nice way to put things, "why quarrel over a stupid bag". The actual truth, "Can't afford but die die want people to know your fake is real, DON'T BUY. WAIT UNTIL MOOLAH FALLS."

I'm a brand addict but you don't see me carrying like gucci, LV and etc. Because for me, i firstly don't believe in fake ones because i want face. And secondly, i prefer to own these stuff using my own hard earned money.

And i was trying to be nice by telling her she should like do something to her make-up because the colours doesn't blend with her. Not sarcastic. I was just saying, "hey, i think the other colour suits your skin tone better eh. Can bring out your natural tan." PERIOD. It was just a suggestion because her face colour is different from the rest of her body e.g. neck.

And she was the one who asked what kind of outfit complement her body. I said no halter because her shoulders are broad. And she whine to you saying that i said shes fat? Like yeah, i do call people and even myself fat, but i merely told her to avoid halters. Not she's fat and she's the one who asked me what complement her figure.

I had no choice but to ask for your help not because i want to. Because she owes me MONEY which i need to collect back. Otherwise, i seriously like to steer clear of your path.

Did i mention, you're a sly, cunning, evil, irritating SON OF A BITCH. Shit, i pity your mum. Let's just call you a fugly piece of shit. It goes well with cow dung :)

BLARH.

I know you read this, so i want to show you my fugly and fat face :)

Oh, my helix got better. I'm in a good mood, though i still wish that couple would die :)

The going is tough but i'm perserving. SIGHS.

Better?

Why do i feel that my helix is getting better but when i asked around, they say "no, its still as swollen". Why ar? But i really think it's healing, at least there's pus and like its coming out. Okay, that sounds uber disgusting but its a sign!!

So maybe this CNY isn't so fun for me. Bye Bye my favourite Hei Bee Hiam :( I'll see you next year? That sounds so exaggerated but whatever lah.

And the girl from the previous post. Lets call her E. I tell you, i can just rant and rant and rant about her the entire day. She can even backstab me saying that i'm short when she's shorter !!! And shes like freaking old, like 27 onwards? Seriously, act cute act young, whatever la. Still want to be a model, i think boss will kill me if i introduce her. Old, fat, fugly biatch.

Nuff said. There's something which i would like to clarify.

I'm seriously an uber straightforward person, whoever, whatever i don't like or my feelings towards something, i will just say it out with no second thoughts. This might be both a strength and a weakness. So i apologize if i did offend any of you because of my bluntness.

And because of this, if there's anything you want to clarify with me, seriously, just do it in my face and not hiding in some corner and backstab. You people know who you all are. I don't blame you for being a group of all girls but yeah, if there's something about me, let me know.

We don't meet up anymore since a few lighyears ago but i know and i have people to tell me what is going on.

I don't wish to step back in anymore, so just let me be okay?

And, i'm not happy.

To be precise, i'm upset.

Chinese New Year FUCKING NOT HAPPY

It's the second day of Chinese New Year. And from the title. It isn't a good one.

Firstly, red packets shrunk like hell. Okay. Please don't go about saying red packets isn't THE THING. Shut your fucking trap. If you really want to say that, give me your red packets. I will be grateful to you. Also serves as a warning to keep your unsightly mouth shut :)

Secondly, i met with someone i detest AGAIN. I seriously don't feel like talking to you. It really irks me. I can't find anything to communicate with you so please stop acting sociable. But what makes me dislike her right? Actually is EVERYTHING. She's not pretty and her make up skills suck balls. She's FAT but she thinks she's slim. I know it isn't her fault to be born fugly but well, too bad for you.

Thirdly, my helix is fucking driving my mood down. *not for the young*

Its fucking painful and swollen but there's no fucking pus nor blood. I can't fucking take the fucking stud out because it's fucking gonna be fucking ugly and i might not pierce it in. I should have fucking not touch the fucking prawns. And i have absolutely no fucking idea how to help my helix. ITS FUCKINGKANINABEYCHEEBYE painful.

And now, i'm fucking stoned. While they are enjoying at Orange.

FUCK IT.

Happy New Year everyone!!

Tommorow's Chinese New Year already but yours truly has no mood :(

Who the hell will have the mood when she has to complete all her fucking assignments. Damnit. Can't we like enjoy? It's bursting my god damned had i tell you. URGH!

Baby's in camp, meeting him tomorrow :) As usual!

Anyway found this:

Baby's a Poplar Tree:
Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, goodorganizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

I'm a Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.

HAHA.

Okays. Collect more Ang Pows and gamble till your last breath but save the money for me :) I'll truly be deeply appreciative.

I shall clobber back to my entre strategies already :(

Maybe this is the last run

Today's Friday! Chinese New Year is like coming round the corner but i don't feel it. I have no idea why either. Whatever it is, i don't really look forward to it.

I just finished watching 康熙來了. As regards to a certain celebrity. Although she's like 20 something but i seriously find her a true bona-fide bimbo. Seriously. Does she think with her butt or her boobs rather than her brains? It only reflects and substantiates people's perspective that looks and brains don't go together. Pretty much of a disgrace in my opinion.

Anyway, this is nothing of my concern. I'm just reflecting my viewpoints and opinions and stand. Oh. Finally after 985674123547 years, i pierced my HELIX. So i have like tragus, lobe and helix. Next up is concha. HAHAHA. I think i'm crazy because that is gonna hurt like some shit. Even Eric took like half a year to heal.

So maybe this might be the last lap for me. I feel that i'm draining out of patience, stamina everything essential to keep it going. I'm really losing everything. How?

_ not helping either. This makes the entire situation even more saddening than what it is now.

Anyway, i don't feel happy/assured/___(fill it in)

Maybe i will just shut up and let it go :(

cause you're hot then you're cold
you're yes then you're no
you're in then you're out
you're up and you're down
you're wrong when it's right
it's black and it's white
we fight we break up
we kiss we make up

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I'm tired and i'm dozing off but i'm still in front of the computer. I'm not even at home :(

And i ask what have you ever did for me or have you even spare a thought for me.

Mummy, bring me home.

Its a fun-filled day

I have half an hour more to golf theory. I'm almost done with SPM revision :) And i edited pictures! Like FINALLY i know.

First up, the ECD Bazaar at Kovan which apparently SUCK BALLS. *&(#*!^*(

Next up the open house which left all of us so fucking effing tired. But definitely, it is a wonderful experience of working and chiong-ing together. And special thanks to Dickson for his special appearance and help to us on Thursday. Deeply appreciated AH BENG. Thank you CHAO AH BENG

So this is basically day two. The top right hand corner picture is yours truly with the chao ah beng - Dickson. So people will know who am i thanking for all the "sai-kang". Oh yeah, he's like the doraemon and transformer and also to me, a mother. SUPER NAGGY, keep asking me to eat eat eat (cause i whine endlessly i was hungry) HAHA.

During the set up of the suites. We really can find joy in like everything? Including "TRM" At least we aren't bores are we ? :)

Our scandal of the class -.- As reported by ABC news, L****** and *a***** were found doing something different during the open house. Something unexpected and defintely not on the agenda. Let the creative juices flow and you'll understand >.<

That was crap. In case you are dumb enough to believe. HAHA. (Disclaimer: to protect their errr. clean status)

School work aside albeit fun though tiring. Time for some TLC and relaxation:)

Oh dear, this is like super last year. The Singapore flyer visit. I should really credit my phone for being so smart to actually be able to take note of the date. Really. The trip to flyer on the 20th December. Just merely a day before the big hoo-haa took place.

But well, seems like "flyer flyer, carrie wants to go on singapore flyer" isn't so fascinating after all. It really was nothing much and pretty cramped too. So much for enjoyment. But well, once in a lifetime beats none?

Pictures speak a thousand words but well, they are indeed my cannot-live-withouts. Without them, i will die. Like literally.

And my wonderful boyfriend went too :) I don't think he really enjoyed it. Same here big guy! And thats a candid shot of ❤Gary and daddy :)

I know you haven't seen him in ages so here's my baby for you :) Or rather, for myself when i self indulge in my own blog. Yes, i admire my own blog, you got a problem?

And of course, before i forgot

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY !

I highly doubt you would actually read my blog though i caught you reading like last month. HAHA. Gotcha! But well. Happy birthday 爸爸! I have been really stubborn with my princess tantrums and all but thanks for giving in to me. Teaching/preaching me every morning about how to drive without being horn-ed by others to debating about political issues. Even to the extent of telling me i should keep my tantrum down with my boyfriend. When i have realtionship issue which leave me upset and helpless, you guided me along and told me to relax.

Maybe i will just type this in a chinese version if you admit you read my blog! HAHA.

To sum up, Happy Birthday dearest daddy. You know i love you more than anything else. So do i get my Suzuki Swift anytime soon? Okay. I'm just kidding.

I know this isn't really my style but yeah. This is the first ever picture okay.

This guy here didn't call me for the entire day today. Urgh :( And i doubt he even reads this. So i can complain and whine all i want.

I was just saying fairytales don't always happen but this time round, i'm so near to my fairytale. I'm just glad it happened.

Although i'm upset that he didn't message or call me but i guess this is what we call give-and-take. He's tired i guess. Maybe i should learn to be less sticky.

Oh yeah.

I PASSED MY BTT ON MY FIRST TRY! Nothing to flaunt about but i'm proud of myself because i only read the book like for an hour and i went to the test.

The * beside me looked at my screen and he understands whereas i don't even be able to comprehend his. But nevertheless,

I PASSED!!!!!!

True Workaholic Born and Bred

It has been a crazy ride the past few days with so many stuff going on that i'm left

TIRED.

But nevertheless, i'm a true workaholic. Pervertic as it sounds or seems, i enjoy being busy and working. At least i know there is some goal in life that i can attain. Maybe i'm a bumble bee reincarnation?

Open House over, IS over (visit to farm many many much much thanks to Baby) i'm left with ECD test and bazaar. So wish me luck for it.

Right now, i'm too tired to really blog after squeezing my brain juice for Tlaw.

Myabe because of so much events going on right now, i have so much lesser of you :(

This is the downside of being a bumble bee. But well, maybe distance makes the heart grow fonder.

For now, i'm pretty unsure of how i _.

will blog soon. with pictures.

Open House Part I

Current addiction:

Hot N Cold - Katy Perry

I like this song but i don't know why. HAHA.

Open House preparations have been hectic these few days. I hope everything goes smoothly tomorrow cause we put in hell lots of work into it.

I have to apologize to Ariana and Yong Liang for losing my tantrum especially when everybody is so busy with things being so so so hectic.

Nevertheless, the experience of preparation though tiring is worthwhile. It's enjoyable and fun i have to admit and it is really job well done yo!

Slacked at the hospitality suite today while waiting for Lay Ying and Hui Qi to be back from collecting souvenirs. And started messing around. HAHA. With Dickson being Doraemon. It's super funny. And transformer.

Sometimes i just wish i can be so busy forever. At least i have some goal in my life. Although tiring but the hard work pays off. Yes, i'm a workaholic don't you think?

Anyway, come down to NP TRM's open house.

It just sums up in one word three letters.

FUN!

I will post the pictures. And it's fucking funny. (Alliteration?)

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I WANNA LOSE WEIGHT. FROM 46 OR 47. I SWEAR I WILL DROP TO 42. I FUCKING SWEAR.

It's merely.

I'm screwed. Seriously screwed. For HBM. I have no idea what nonsense i'm typing about and it seems like some random person yakking away. With no sense whatsoever.

I'm pretty tired now and sleepyhead is sleeping happily away :( Slept at 5 am last night and woke up at 10 am today. This explains why are we so tired.

I have no idea where are we going later or maybe just laze around in the cove.

I received an sms and a phonecall. I am not happy. I don't understand why people can be so rude at times. And asking the same old thing. Which i am tired of answering. Hasn't the person got any form of education? Or is his-her education got wasted? Or maybe, he-she dropped his-her brains on the bus? I think he-she is just pathetic.

Why he-she? Cause i think this person looks like a guy. Adam's apple. HAHA.

I'm craving for bedok 85 or town.

I just went town.

School's starting and so is his duty :(

But i'm looking forward to _.

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Sometimes, when you wish for a fairytale to happen, it never will.

Or maybe, they don't exist at all.

Am i deserving all this?